Sitting downstairs (not so bad)

[EricJones]

I'm sitting downstairs with the staff members and the residents that walk by. It's hard but seems manageable. I'm not as fearful as I normally am. I still am hyper vigilant a medium amount, but it doesn't feel as unbearable as it was the other day. slow progress, but progress indeed. I'll continue to sit downstairs until it seems to not be a problem at all.

[litethatnevergoesout]

excellent news Eric!

[EricJones in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

yeah, you think people are paying me any attention? or are they lost in their own world?

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to EricJones]

I would think they notice you there but they aren’t aware of your hyper vigilance. they cannot feel what you’re feeling unless you were to stop them and explain it and show them what exactly your mannerisms are while hyper vigilant.

[EricJones in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

so they can't tell by my body movements that i'm hyper vigilant?

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to EricJones]

I don’t think so. if anyone were to notice your body movements they wouldn’t have anything to connect it with, they do not know the hyper vigilance and any connection to your movement.

[EricJones in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

so if im moving in accordance to someone else, they can't connect my movements to their own because I could be moving for all sorts of reasons?

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to EricJones]

That’s right. innumerable reasons.

[EricJones in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

thats why they dont try and see it or dont care about it?

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to EricJones]

I go to a place and there’s many different people with specific behaviors, like for instance one fellow rocks back and forth whenever he is sitting down. I think nothing of it when I see him, I imagine there’s a reason for it but I say to myself that’s just him. it’s who he is. your hyper vigilance is way more discrete it would take someone to study you to even begin to notice anything.

[EricJones in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

you don't think its that noticeable?

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to EricJones]

I haven’t seen it but I still think it’s unnoticeable. definitely nothing anyone can connect the reason for your body movements to being hyper vigilant to their body movement.

[EricJones in reply to litethatnevergoesout]

okay

[litethatnevergoesout in reply to EricJones]

you can be at as much ease as you possibly can to work on the hyper vigilant nature and character you have without giving yourself away its due to others and your hyper vigilance noticing them. silently keep working and being at ease you can go at your pace and be comfortable no one will be suspicious of it.

[BlueAgave]

So great to hear! Keep up the good work.

[EricJones in reply to BlueAgave]

thanks BlueAgave

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

There you go! A little bit at a time really does go a long way 😊

[EricJones in reply to CL3V3R-G1RL]

yeah hopefully with time i wouldn't continue to exhale like i do. i exhale forcefully because of my anxiety

[CL3V3R-G1RL in reply to EricJones]

Well for right now breathing exercises are okay. I do box breathing in public when the stress of being in a line or waiting room. Eventually you will start to relax and get more comfortable.

[EricJones in reply to CL3V3R-G1RL]

at least you dont hear random sounds that come from other people...its frustrating as hell

[Tracey0101]

I rock back and forth while sitting and do hand and fingers movements because of my autism and my adhd makes me pace up and down and do it continuously for some time this is the adhd that does this and I get really distracted and my concentration and attention is not great either. I talk fast and fast when this happens which is my adhd playing a big part of my life.

[Teaching]

Good to hear Eric. They are all minding their business so don't worry about them watching you.

[EricJones in reply to Teaching]

If I'm next to someone and my movement really seems to compliment someone else's movements, nobody can tell I'm thinking about them (through my movements)

[Teaching in reply to EricJones]

They don't notice you Eric

[EricJones in reply to Teaching]

do you know how i can get rid of the "random sound" problem i seem to be having?

[Teaching in reply to EricJones]

I'm not sure Eric. It's something you can discuss with your Doctors to figure out why you are hearing sounds. I pray it's resolved sooner.

[Agora1]

Eric, my heart is joyful, my belief in you is strong xx

[EricJones in reply to Agora1]

thanks Agora....i'm still not sure what to do about all the sounds I am hearing, but being next to people is getting better. I'm still on high-alert, but realize that people dont generally pay attention to me....(still scared that they will though) haha

[Midori]

Well done Eric, that's the way.

Cheers, Midori