New job, Anxiety Attack

[CatDogLover]

Hello all. I’ve been struggling with the decision to pursue a job requiring me to move over 2000 miles away from Florida to Arizona. Ever since interviewing for the job I’ve been preparing for the move by applying for rental housing and other preparations in case I got the offer. Yesterday I received the formal offer and immediately accepted. I haven’t had my bad anxiety attacks lately because I started lexapro and continued with my nightly Xanax. Last night I drove to my sister’s place late so couldn’t take my Xanax and had a glass of wine. I was up later than usual which was all bad for my condition. I had an attack and was petrified over my decision to take the job. I thought I was well enough to go back to an office environment instead of working remote and to take the promotion, but last night I had second thoughts and worry that I may not be well enough to do the job and my new manager is higher up and may not understand my condition with empathy as my old manager. I am unsure how to proceed. This morning I feel fine and confident I can go through the hardship of relocation and a new potentially more stressful job. But am I just fooling myself? Part of me wants to speak with my old boss and see if I can remain in my current position as a remote employee. But my current position is stressful in other ways as well which is why I sought a new job. I don’t want to ruin things at work or they may see my as indecisive and weak. I have bipolar I with anxiety and have always worked full time as an engineer regardless. I’m excited about the new position and the opportunity it brings. I just have to be really careful I thank with making sure I stick with my routine sleep schedule and anxiety medication especially during the move and transition. Any thoughts? Many thanks.

[sunshinefan]

Hello-You got this. If you think you can do it then you can do it. I wish you good luck and what an exciting time.

[CatDogLover in reply to sunshinefan]

thanks!

[BrainIsFull]

Hi. My issues are depression/anxiety /cptsd.

I really relate to your questioning yourself, whether or not you are going to be able to actually make the move and do the job.

I would guess that being confronted with such a major change could exacerbate your panic symptoms.

Like you said, sticking to your medication and sleep routine very carefully during this period of increased stress will probably be very important!

I have no doubt that you are competent enough to do the job and pay close attention to your mental health care!

💚 💚 💚

[CatDogLover in reply to BrainIsFull]

Thank you!