Going through it..,

[-SOE-]

Hi all,

I am new here and decided to reach out because i am going through a very low point with my depression and anxiety. My support structure is very limited so I figured writing here might open it up and give me some insight. Now that I am in my low, my self worth is nearly zero. I have been waking up every morning with this unexplainable sense of hopeless and doom. My job is in a weird flux and I feel like I am incapacitated of doing simple tasks let alone work needs. My wife is supportive but really doesn’t have the “expertise” to usher me through this. I know what needs to be done to get out of this but the task seems mountainous. I am also in flux with my medications right now. I have been trying different meds for the past few months with little help. That is starting to feel hopeless as well. Here’s hoping this passes with little effect to my “normal “ life.

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. I am glad you have joined us. Being here and connecting with others who understand has helped me so much. I hope it helps you as well. There is so much support here.

[Astro_potato]

I am so sorry you are going through this right now. I totally get the feeling of being isolated; I can be surrounded by people, and yet still totally feel alone because none of them feel what I feel. None of them know how hard it is for me to smile, to get out of bed, to do trivial things like brush my hair. I too have a supportive spouse, but he's (thankfully) never been through anything like this and can only hold me and tell me everything will be alright. Sometimes I want to scream at him, IM NOT ALRIGHT, ILL NEVER BE ALRIGHT, DONT YOU GET IT? Which in turn makes me feel even worse about myself, because all he's trying to do is help, in his own way. All I can say is that the support of this community had been overwhelming. You are not alone.

[Agora1]

Hi -SOE- Welcome to a caring, supportive community. We all have been in

front of that mountain of issues to climb. Where do we start? With one foot

in front of the other. Never looking back but always going forward. When things

get a little tough, we stop to regenerate but we never stay stuck in that position.

As we get closer to our goal, we realize that we had it in us all this time. We just

needed a little motivation from others who have been through the same thing.

You are not alone SOE. We're all walking beside you. You can do this xx

[BlueAgave]

Welcome to the group. Sorry you're in a difficult time right now, and it will get better. Keep pushing forward and lean on us as you need to. One day at a time. ❤️

[Cookie2217]

It can be very frustrating when you are at a low point in your life and are feeling hopeless and hopeless especially if the medications that you're taking don't seem to be working properly in order to help you. I know that my own medication has stopped working and I asked my doctor to put me on Prozac because my friend and my cousin have had success with it and I'm hoping that I do too. Right now I don't have medical insurance and that makes it hard to seek out a therapist then a psychiatrist so my primary care physician is the one that's prescribing my psychotropic medication which isn't ideal but it's what needs to happen right now at least for the moment. I missed the enrollment period I can't get state insurance for another few months so here I sit and wait for other options and it frustrates me because I used to work for the state and had great insurance and was there for 20 years but we signed 2023 I was unemployment after that and then I wound up losing my home because there were no extensions so now I'm living in my sister's basement so the only place to go from years up because I'm at my lowest point right now as last year brought me to my knees. I'm hoping that things will start to look up soon they have to because what's left to go wrong you know what I mean. Hoping that you find medication that works soon and that you begin to feel better shortly. Wishing you peace and well being.

[AlchemistAX]

Im so sorry that you are in pain. Usually when people tell me i’m not alone it makes me feel worse because i feel like they don’t understand that just because they aren’t alone doesn’t mean we aren’t. Sometimes loneliness is felt even when you are talking with someone because even if they are right there you feel like they aren’t. On that depressing note i want to contradict myself and say that you need to know its true you aren’t alone. Even if you dont know there are thousands of people in the world who would fight for you so you should fight for them too.

[catsrock]

Welcome. This is a good place with supportive people.

[bethelbee]

Welcome to HU! Sorry you're having a rough time. Have you considered alternative treatment?I am in my late 60's and up until a few years ago had been on meds since the late 80's. Some worked really well, others not so much. The last few I tried either didn't work or gave me intolerable side effects. Luckily my therapist recommended TMS(Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation). It's a noninvasive treatment that uses magnetic pulses targeting a part of the brain to eliminate depression. I had 3 rounds and the last one is still working after 2 years. Obviously as with any treatment results vary. It literally saved my life at one point. It's a big time commitment (usually 5x/wk for 6-7 weeks)but well worth it if successful. Each treatment is about 20 minutes. It's something to consider. I hope things get better for you...

[Excludite]

I feel you. I’m hopeless that I’ll ever feel normal. I have no support and joined recently because I’m lost and have no one to share my darkness with. But this community is promising…