Overwhelmed

[LivingInTheDark]

I’m not sure where to begin. I didn’t grow up in the best of situations and I had to grow up fast to survive. I’m married, have two children and I work in the education field. Most recently I decided to be selfish and made a stupid decision that has wrecked me.

[Rosepetal60]

I feel for you, it’s very easy to make a mistake. Been there, done that and regret for ever. Take care of yourself.

[LivingInTheDark in reply to Rosepetal60]

Thank you! I have a good support system but feel like they have got to be tired of me not getting over this. Maybe talking to strangers would be more helpful?

[Rosepetal60 in reply to LivingInTheDark]

If your support people haven’t had your experience, then its possible it could be more difficult for them to understand your situation . So your idea of communicating with strangers is a good one. Well done you

[Hidden in reply to Rosepetal60]

I agree. I have found that people who haven't experienced the death of their mother (or a close loved one) cannot understand what it feels like. It wasn't until I went to Griefshare group that I found people who understood and I was able to heal. I think it's probably the same for alcoholics. When they go to AA meetings, they meet people who understand and can help. Therapy is great if you can find a therapist who is old enough to have been through some life experiences in addition to their book training.

[LivingInTheDark in reply to Hidden]

Very well said and much appreciated. Friends are always going to be biased to a point but my true friends will tell it like it is as well. I have a great therapist but a crazy schedule and haven’t had an appt since the middle of February. I’m the first to give up my needs to be there for others and I have to learn self care.

[gajh]

Hello and Welcome. Feel free to share as much or as little as you are comfortable whenever you are ready. We are here for you.

[LivingInTheDark in reply to gajh]

Thank you so much! It’s scary to think of without feeling the judgement of others but maybe I will realize that I’m not a monster.

[Dolphin14]

LivingInTheDark

Welcome to the community,

I hope whatever your decision was that you can fix things in some way.

We are here to listen and support you

🐬

[LivingInTheDark in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you! I really need to learn to forgive myself first and foremost so I can move on.

[BedBug]

Welcome. Yes alot of people don't understand unless they have been through it . Your right sometimes talking to strangers helps more than a loved one. I have been there many times and they think I am lazy and crazy. That hurts deeply. So glad there is this support group to chat with others who know what Iam going thru.There will be good days and bad days. Today I am in a down day. Lots of self care.

[LivingInTheDark in reply to BedBug]

Thank you. What looks like lazy and crazy to others is what we have learned by living in survival mode. The down days are the hardest. I try to be as positive as I can and to lead by example. A mistake doesn’t define me but the racing thoughts and rumination is difficult and I’m trying to let go. I’ve let go of other things in my life but this one is tough. Thank you for replying. I appreciate it.

[BedBug]

Remember you are not alone. You can do this. Keep plugging away. I have faith in you. This shall pass . It will get easier.