okay, but not really

[Lookingforhope20100]

So, lately, I've been feeling okay... but at the same time, I feel anxious and depressed, and I started hurting myself again. I don't like it I don't want to keep doing it but drowning my sorrows in liquor and pot isn't working anymore and the doctor wont give me anything to help. The voice just gets louder. I feel numb; I go through life's motions without being there. I have a routine; I stick to it, I feel okay, and if I venture from it. It's like the end of the world. I have a consistent need to carry everything I could ever need with me. it keeps me calm knowing I have everything. I don't really know what more to say I don't really know how I even feel. I just know I want this feeling to go away any and all advice is helpful.

[Starrlight]

I feel the same… like I am functioning but almost always very anxious and depressed at times What kind of things do you keep with you ? It’s a good idea if it makes you feel safe.

[Jillsmom28]

I know that numb feeling all to well. I am trying to create a schedule, but I get so fatigued, I just can't stick to it. I've been trying CBT and EMDR. It seems to help when the depression is not so severe, but when it's really bad, I can't think of anything that helps, except for talking to a friend or prayer. Best of luck to you.