I am not okay today

Haven't posted in a bit, but have been on a emotional rollercoaster lately.

Does any one else have the problem of feeling like a background person in their own life?

I seem to have that problem, and have my whole life. But I guess I am so numb and hurt at this point that I now don't really know how to go about things. I know I really can't make the people in my life understand, but this is slowly making me shut down again..

help...

[Ilovecats1739]

I hear you !! Anxiety and depression is hard to get through - I have been pushing people away - who wants to hang around a miserable crying mess like me .. trying to get a little bit stronger everyday . I am living with all my bad choices and life is not easy thats for sure .. take it one day at a time ..

[gajh]

Hello Avian33 I just wanted to say Hello and Welcome. I am glad you have joined us.

[gajh]

I know you are brand new, but if you feel up to it, you could write your own post to get some replies and connect with people. Not pushing you at all though. Whenever you are ready.

[gajh]

Awesome that is how it was intended. I just read your post. Good for you. I hope you get a lot of replies.

[mizzou7016]

I'm just going to say this.....For a very long time I have felt like that I am a background singer in my life opera......through time and different programs..I've learned that no one but myself is going to have my best interests at heart. No one understands me better than me....That it is not only ok to put myself on my priority list.....that sometimes I need to be at the top....self care is oh so important.....and hopefully some day it will become second nature

[Hidden in reply to mizzou7016]

I have been trying as I can, seems life gets in the way. Or as soon as I am back to normal everyday life BAM... right back to the start..

[mizzou7016 in reply to Hidden]

are you really right back to the start.....or are you just not satisfied with the "speed of the process".....as long as progress is made....no matter how little progress we think it is......we are moving forward...and sometimes.....a continued part of moving forward is repeating part of the process that we did yesterday....I'm going to post the Irish way that I've been posting lately....just take things one at a time....and if all you get done today is 1 thing......there's always tomorrow....it's not a failure

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