Just alone.

[PeaceNeed]

Im in senior residence. Most people here dont have MDD. Im always scared that they will realize im very sick. I wake up every morning and ask God ...enough please no more pain.

[Hidden]

I'm glad you have access to the internet and can communicate here with people who understand depression and anxiety. Don't they have activities there to keep you engaged? Do you have a dr you can talk to about how you feel? Maybe you need some meds to help or some talk therapy. I hope you have a good day.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Hidden]

Have counselor and meds. I have to function well enough to keep housing. Im physically not well. Ageing alone . 😭😭😭

[Hidden in reply to PeaceNeed]

What happens if you can't function? I can't imagine that they can kick you out of your home. Can they?

[PeaceNeed in reply to Hidden]

In this city they can. Its a process but they can. If it happens i want to run off to the woods some where . I havent felt happy for 7 years now.I dont know how Ive lasted as long as I have. My whole body is tense.

Stomach goving me trouble all the time.

[Hidden in reply to PeaceNeed]

Your stomach problems are probably related to your depression and anxiety. That happened to me last year and I ended up with a small ulcer. Emotions will wreck all parts of our bodies. I haven't felt happy for almost 2 years and I wonder what it's going to take for me to feel better about myself and my life. Something has to change. I know it has to change in my and in my thinking. I once heard that Nothing Changes if Nothing Changes. That makes sense. So what small change can you make today to try to improve how you feel? Call someone on the phone? Step outside and look at the sky? Read a good book? If you are able to get out, is there a senior center around where you can go do activities? We have one in our town and we do crafts, play games, exercise, eat, coloring books, etc. It feels good to be around other people. We all need companionship. Being alone with our thoughts is not helpful because we dwell on them and ruminate on them.

[PeaceNeed]

All true. senior centers near me. I go when have energy. Negative emotions draining.

[Hidden in reply to PeaceNeed]

Please try to make one change to see if it can help you feel better.

[Mohammad-341]

I also used to say same words 5 yrs ago