My anxiety is high.

[Dodoguitarman]

I can't deal with the least thing. Even meditation 🧘‍♂️ isn't doing it for me. I just want to be left alone to be honest but my one son who has ADHD keeps calling me from his bedroom making me get up and shouting up stairs. They got the electric hair cutters out and the box of bits is all over the floor which our dog will vhew then I'll have to buy another. They keep losing or breaking their vape pens. Now I bought 4 to back up. My son is exactly clean. They both smoke pot and leaves a massive mess in the morning. I'm complaining but I don't usually mind. I'm just feeling stressed and I hate feeling this way cause if I sound snappy I feel a awful guilt. I love them to bits abd that makes me feel worse. I have been missing taking my Mirtazapine too. It could be that as well. Plus the dog we got has strict restrictions and getting him castrated isn't as easy as ui thought. I feel like screaming 😱

[Agora1]

Dear Dodo, I worry about you. When we get to the point of feeling trapped in the corner

with no resolutions in sight, nothing will work as it use to, including your meditation.

Not taking your medication is certainly playing a big part of your high stress coming out.

I've known people who feel that urge to scream and it is not a bad idea to find a place you

can be alone and scream into a pillow. It is your body's way in releasing the toxic emotions

and frustration that you are feeling.

Once we get into this situation, it is difficult to turn it around but not impossible.

This is where Dr. Claire Weekes theory on "acceptance" can come into play.

It's important we know what we can change and what we can't. Don't allow your love

and guilt for your boys to push you to the limits. No one wins then.

Are you able to set up an appt with your therapist?? Ask your doctor regarding the

Mirtazapine as to how to restart your medication. (depending on how long you missed

a dose)

Keep reaching out to us my friend. It's important at this time to be surrounded by

support. Peace be with you! xx