I wrote about how mom lost it and treated to send me and sis to dad who has a baby. I'm anxious since then. To me things calmed down but today i went to a walk in attempt to feel better but i didn't stop having thoughts of mom dumping her and insulting her that i felt unwell and caught the first bus to go home and see what's going on. Sis was sick. She's really unwell. She's really nauseus and dizzy and her head hurts. She looks like she's about to pass out. And dad isn't here. And mom's inadequate. And i'm inadequate too because i'm anxious as hell and trying to hide it so i don't bother sis. Now mom's annoying too. She tells sis "go to sleep" multiple times and sis is telling her she's about to throw up. Mom won't listen. It's early to sleep and sis feels unwell. I know this feeling. If my sister is sick because of my parents' bullshit, my heart will break. Really, my heart won't take it. I really hope they aren't the cause. I really hope i'm just anxious. But she's sick for real and i'm scared.
Edit : Mom's mean at her while she's so unwell 😭😭😭