Feeling low

[NYlover]

Hi

I've been feeling very low lately. I have anxiety and it kicks in the mornings, but today I've been feeling it all day. I feel I have trouble breathing, my mind won't stop going from one thought to another, it is exhausting. I only feel like sleeping to stop feeling this badly. And even when I sleep, I don't rest. I'm extremely tired, I feel lonely and sad, and worried about the future. I can't stop playing the "what if" games. I'm so confused and messed up that I'm not sure about things I was completely sure about before. I take antidepressants (My doc increased the dose recently) and I go to therapy every two weeks. But it doesn't matter because I'm stuck in my head, and it does what it wants.

[BlueAgave]

Sorry to hear you're having a hard time right now. You are doing well with the fact that you're in therapy and have some medicine to help. It's not going to be a quick fix however. It will take time and practice to feel better and stop the what if's. Some things that have helped me are meditation, journaling, and exercise. You can and will get through this. I wish you peace!

[NYlover in reply to BlueAgave]

Thank you so much BlueAgave 🩵 I have started journaling and it does help. I also do yoga and meditation. But as I said in the post, it doesn’t matter cause I keep going down to the dar place. Thanks for your encouragement! I wish you peace too 🙏🏽

[BlueAgave in reply to NYlover]

Any time! I know it feels awful, but it will get better. Keep pushing through! You are going to be fine 😊

[DimSparkle]

I really relate to this- I take a lot of naps because it’s the only way to stop my brain and honestly it passes the time that I otherwise spend struggling.

Do you think the new dose is making your anxiety higher?

I hope you can find some joy- for me “fake it until you make it” helps.

Wishing you all the best.

[NYlover in reply to DimSparkle]

Hi there

Not at all, my meds have saved me. They did 9 years ago and they have done so now. The fake it till you make it is my modus operandi at work. I fake smiles and try to have a positive attitude., sometimes I even convince myself that I’m actually better. But then the next morning comes and the cycle starts all over again. Thanks for you support 🙏🏽 Much appreciated.

[DimSparkle in reply to NYlover]

I’m really glad to hear that medicine has saved you. Hopefully I find that some day.

[NYlover in reply to DimSparkle]

You will! I’m sure of it.

Also, meds have saved me from being even worst, that doesn’t mean I’m ok. It’s a balance between chemicals and your daily intentions (this second part is the one I need to master). Hope you have a wondertul day. I’m here for you

[DimSparkle in reply to NYlover]

Thank you 💜

[Chest1]

have you had your Cortisol levels checked?

[NYlover in reply to Chest1]

I had a regular check up a few months back and everything looked fine… But I might repeat the tests just in case. Thanks for suggesting it!

[Hidden]

Hi NYlover, as I was reading your message I thought "I don't remember writing this.???" because it sounds exactly like what is going on with me. Mornings are the worst. I wake up anxious and it lasts all day and slowly wears off. Today is really bad and it's only 9:06am so I have about 8 hours until I feel "good." I'm reading a book called Rewire Your Anxious Brain and it explains it really well. It has to do with the amygdala in our brain and the cortex and cortisol and adrenaline. I'm hoping the book will give tips/tricks on how to fix this problem. I can't keep living like this and I know you can't either. I hope you start to feel better today.

[NYlover in reply to Hidden]

Dear Barbloki,

The beginning of your reply made me smile thanks for that. I totally get you. Mornings are so tough I don’t wanna get up at all. I have read a few books about this; they all teach us interesting things but then when the anxiety rises I’m not in control, it takes power over me and all the “wisdom” I’ve learned from books is for nothing. I’m now reading a book called Conquer Worry and Anxiety. I really like it, and it shows breathing and relaxation techninques that might be useful too. No, I convey we cannot live like this. I wish you are feeling a bit better since this morning. We are here for you. We are here with you. Holding hands and singing “every little thing is gonna be ok” 🙏🏽☺️

[catsrock]

I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. I have totally been there and it sucks. The thing that has helped me the most was learning about inner child work - maybe you could ask your therapist about that? The other thing that helps me get out of my head is exercising in some way - even if it's just a walk around the block. But particularly getting out in nature. No idea if any of this helps, but I hope you feel better soon.

[NYlover]

Hi Catsrock, thanks for you empathy. Nature is really helpful. Hiking and exercising in general helps yes, however, I don’t know bout you but in my case when I’m this anxious and depressed, I don’t have the energy to go and exercise. I feel tired all the time. About the inner child, I’m gonna ask my therapist about it. I have done some execices talking to me (usually in writing) as a little girl. I don’t know if that’s what you were refering.. in any case, thanks for your suggestions bless you

[car103]

I just read this and it goes over a lot of the things we talk about here. Maybe something will resonate and help you.

yaakovweiland.blogspot.com/...

[NYlover in reply to car103]

Thank you

[NYlover in reply to car103]

I really liked the article, Car103. TBH all the steps described are already on my list. Some of them I practice more often than others, but they are all under my radar. Still, it is a good reminder. Much appreciated !

[car103 in reply to NYlover]

When I am deep into the Depression/Anxiety place, I try to do just one as a catalyst to feel successful to help me move to another.Honestly, struggling with my mental health is hard. That line is always "Choose your hard." Everyone struggles; we just don't know.

[NYlover in reply to car103]

Everyone does, but I sometimes wonder if the level of suffering is also the same. I suffer a lot. When anxiety takes over, I’m in pain. People without anxiety don’t have to deal with that, and sometimes I feel jealous of that. I just need some inne peace 🙏🏽