scared for later

[Daisy425]

I was able to go take a drive to my favorite smoothie place today and spend some time with my mom. I haven’t been eating much because I’m anxious in general, and also so nervous about throwing up. But, I’m finding that I feel nauseous and it may be because I’m not eating. My mom said tonight I should try to eat a meal with some protein.

Right now I’m laying down. In allowing myself one nap as I will go to bed early tonight since I go back to work tomorrow. After my nap I was going to make some chicken and pasta, but I’m quite scared. Throwing up is my biggest fear.

I really let myself go. My apartment is a mess and I had things I wanted to get done over my days off to prepare for teaching tomorrow, but I have just been so anxious I can’t.

[Marysblue]

I say be proud you got out and did some things to enjoy yourself. That probably did you a lot of good. Eating will make you feel better. We all have times we can't get everything done that we want to do. My struggle with that too. I like to have everything just so but it can always be that way.

[Daisy425 in reply to Marysblue]

I tried to eat some pasta with chicken but I couldn’t eat a lot. Just a very small bowl

[bethelbee in reply to Daisy425]

At least you ate something. Have you tried a protein shake?

[Daisy425 in reply to bethelbee]

I had a smoothie

[roses4all]

I am so glad you were able to have time with your mom... and at a restaurant too. I have extreme anxiety, and both|either of those things would have wiped me out.

I can sure relate to using up all my energy and not having enough left to clean. I do two things: 1) I keep one day just for cleaning and I don't go out. 2) I make a list in very small chunks and I prioritize. For example, cleaning the bathroom entails: 1) sweep floor, 2) wash bathtub, 3) clear countertop, 4) clean mirror and sink and counertop, 5) return stuff to countertop, 6) product in toilet, 7) clean inside of toilet, 8) clean outside of toilet. If I am washing the floor, I add: 1) clear bathroom and 2) wash floor, 3) return stuff to bathroom... before the other stuff.

When my anxiety is really bad or when I have a lot going on, it can take a whole week to clean the bathroom. At this time in my life, I usually get it done in chunks in 4 hours.

And when I go to see my mom, I just accept that there will be no cleaning that week.