Anyone else feel like this?

[ashishere]

Sometimes i wake up in the morning and sit there staring at the wall, Not because im lazy, Because i can be brave enough to get out of bed. Don't want to deal with the day that im I'm going into, My Life is always coming up with new ways to bite back at me. Even when all im trying to do is be happy, I can only remember one time that i have ever been happy. Because when covid hit my life went into a spiral and thats when my depression really started. I didn't feel like doing anything, Barely Ate. It took my own parents forcing me to get out of bed for me to even want to do anything. I used to be so fit, and now i feel like a chubby monster. And whenever i wear a dress that makes me feel beautiful, all that people see is my fat. Even if they arent, its just im so parnoid that they are. I am constantly wearing baggy clothes. And half of my closet is sweat pants or anything that wont show my body.

[hypercat54]

Being happy isn't a permanent state of mind. It comes and goes from the little things in life.

A much better one to aim for is contentment. You have to learn to walk before you can run. Once you have achieved more self knowledge and hence more self esteem contentment is more doable.

Once there it is possible to be happier. Are you seeing a therapist?

[ashishere in reply to hypercat54]

no

[hypercat54 in reply to ashishere]

Well maybe its something to consider?

[ashishere]

yea i felt happier when i was fit