need help with anxiety and reframing

[MindBodyDoc]

Hi Guys:

So back in September I made a job change and had two job offers / one for a small company that would not require me to commute and I can be home with my wife and two young kids and sleep in my own bed but the company is a bit chaotic and hectic. The other choice was accepting a job at a big world renowned company and working for my old boss who became my friend over the past 2 years and she was very good to me. Well I initially declined the big company because it required me to commute 3 days a week out of state and therefore leave my wife with au pair and two young kids alone 3 days a week. After I decline my friend and to be boss said if I change my mind in 60 days I can go back. So that though got stuck in my head and then in November I went back and they re interviewed me (they had to because there are many involved in decision) and then I got an offer again on January 5th, I also had COVId and a sinus infection and for some reason this caused an anxiety spiral and I lost sleep. Ultimately I made the decision ti decline again - because I just could not get myself to leave the kids and my wife alone 3 days a week and ultimately if I wanted to stay with this company and advance - I would have had to move my whole family. Of course this closed that door for good. Our entire support system is where we are now. Since this decision I have had terrible anxiety, started Lexapro 2.5 mg and have had insomnia since then. In my heart I know this was right but my current job I realize although I am liked and started off well / I don’t like the culture and I don’t have a friend or someone I can vent with which I always had. So I need some

Advice and reframing tips and encouragement you can provide especially if you had to deal with something similar and overcame it.

[Typsy_gypsy]

It sounds to me that you made the right decision. Your family needs you and you realize that fact. Being unhappy in your job is not fun, though. I've been there. Maybe you'll get more friendly with your coworkers once you've been there a little longer? It's always hard to be the new person. Are there other local job possibilities you could try in time? None of this may be helpful, but you put your family's needs above your own which is admirable. Give your meds time to work and please let your doctor know about the insomnia. Everything seems worse when you aren't getting enough sleep. Hang in there and know you aren't alone with the anxiety and stress. Much peace and love for you and your family.

[MindBodyDoc in reply to Typsy_gypsy]

love your response - thank you! Yes there are other jobs around I am sure - I need to first stabilize this anxiety and then yes absolutely I will have to look for something perhaps less chaotic.

[Midori in reply to MindBodyDoc]

Definiely; You work to pay for your life and that of your family, but many businesses think it should be the other way around. Do what it right for you and the family.

Cheers, Midori