I thought I would feel so much better the day after my colonoscopy but I have so much anxiety. This is going to be word vomit and I apologize I just need to get it out.
rhis morning I went to breakfast with a friend and got an egg sandwich and a coffee. The coffee probs isn’t helping things and I’m mad at myself for getting it.
I feel anxious and since eating this morning I’m now anxious to eat again because I don’t want to throw up.
I also left my anxiety meds at home (I stayed with my dad). My dad takes the same exact meds as me so he was able to give me some of his pills (I know this is a no no but I didn’t want to go without my meds). His pills look different than mine but when I look both his pills and my pills up they say they are both sertraline hcl 100mg, just produced by a different company. So now I’m scared his meds will make me sick even though it says they are the same. I took them about 4 hours ago.
I don’t want this to cause me to fall into an anxious spiral. I’m supposed to go stay with my boyfriend tonight but don’t want him to deal with this.
im also so scared I’ll throw up
Social anxiety has taken over so much of my Life 😔 
Why are mornings so much worse.
So much in so let it out in FREEWRITE 
