Its been awhile since I've written. Today I had a good session with my therapist. She reminded me a lot of my symptoms are most likely related to my physical health.
I have an immune disease. I live in chronic pain and am always going to the bathroom. I alternate between sitting up and resting in bed with 3 pillows up to support my neck.
I don't look sick and I never have. I get a lot of judgements thrown at me that I'm self isolating or anti social when it's due to my physical limitations.
I'm also alone. Managing the day to day things while dealing with the illness. Also when your alone doctors don't listen to you as much. So I've felt like a plastic bags being blown around the past few years. I've been moving around from place to place because when your alone, your more of a target.
The medication I'm on for my physical illness makes me emotional at times and emotional regulation can be a challenge at times it's a lot to deal with and cope with. It feels like I receive more criticism than help.
But I'm very happy about my appointment today. I'm currently working towards some personal goals of mind. I should change my handle here from hanginginthere to creating a better life for myself.
Thank you for listening. Have a good night.