anxiety and depression

[Cottapie20]

I started to feel depressed and anxious when I was 40 years old I had a operation and my ex husband got me pregnant straight away I was doing everything he was sat at home we had to move 2 times because we was moving to Scotland and the man would not move out as he agreed l didn’t feel well because of the operation and the stress and being pregnant my ex husband had no understanding and was talking to my children about me he said I was not the same person he said if I didn’t like Scotland we would move back home he lied I hated the place and couldn’t settle l felt so bad because I had made a big mistake we was on benefits and he was drawing money out and putting it in his own back account he was cheating on me with my sons wife sister he sent divorce papers to me after 16 years of living in Scotland I was very upset l moved back home as my children all but my youngest was not talking to me I love my children with all my heart but he destroyed my life and then he stopped talking to most of my children and one comment suicide he was very nasty about my son funeral he was going to put him in a cardboard coffin I refused to let him do that to my son so he said I could do it and he was not going this meant his brothers and sister didn’t go his two brothers that did go was with me at my son funeral I did a proper coffin and church service and burial I paid for everything I was not coping with my son death and have been really devastated then 3 weeks ago I took a overdose because of other things that has gone on in my life like when I was little and my mother does not believe me I have been to the police in April and they have not done anything yet my sister has been to the police as well it’s nothing to do with my dad he was a brilliant dad it’s to do with my brothers and one of my sons has damaged my things on purpose and my car as well I was in intensive care in hospital and my mother didn’t even come to see me I have lost interest in my self and my life I don’t care about anything I just can’t bring my self to do anything I don’t go out and I just stay in my night clothes all day I just feel like staying in bed all day and don’t know what to do anymore

[LoveforAll41]

Hi Cottapie, I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad with no interest in your life. You have had some very very hard things too, that would take a lot of work for anyone to get through. Are you able to go to therapy? I think that you have probably learned many valuable lessons through these things and could share good things with others. I love the work of David Burns in his book "Feeling Great" and also the Feeling Good podcast. I wish you peace, hope, and strength. ☮️