Walking through mud

[Spiritanimal]

I’m in the mud. I left my high-stress job 6 weeks ago because of what I thought was professional burnout. Turns out the burnout is mostly related to me, my boundaries, my trauma, my mental health problems, now complicated by physical illness. The burnout ran much deeper than I was hoping. Thankfully I have a fantastic therapist who is helping me to excavate all of the yuck. I am also grappling with frequent thoughts of wanting to end my marriage because my husband is like a grown up child who treats me like I’m his mother and it is a huge energy suck. I am already single-handedly raising a daughter from a previous marriage. I am not in a position to do it right now though. Just now I’m sort of sitting and staring at all of it, feeling exhausted, trying to stay present and acknowledge my feelings rather than running from them but also trying to avoid getting stuck in depression which I am prone to doing. I know this too shall pass. It is a lot. But as my therapist reminds me, no mud, no lotus. I will keep trudging 🚶🏻‍♀️💗

[Starrlight]

I don’t know what to say except that I am listening and I’m rooting for you!

[Sol-]

I'm so sorry this is all on you. Keep working, keep climbing, even when the hole seems so deep and dark that no light is visible. The light is there, even when you can't see it.

[Spiritanimal in reply to Sol-]

Thank you so much ♥️