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[PeaceNeed]

Where to live is why Im sick now. Why I want god and jesus to take me home. I made bad choices in life . Too much avoidance and ran into to many bad people along the way.

[Starrlight]

Lonepain,

what’s going on? You will have no home? Everyone makes mistakes in life.. we can focus on what we can do for right now… I’m so sorry you are suffering.

We are here for you.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Starrlight]

Im getting worse. I have to help myself . I feel helpless. People see how old and weak Ive become....Its like having a target on my back.

[Starrlight in reply to PeaceNeed]

Is there anyone you can ask for help?

[PeaceNeed in reply to Starrlight]

No, I feel helpless . The depression has drained all the energy out of me. I had one friend who really helped me she is gone now.

[Starrlight in reply to PeaceNeed]

I hear you. I’m sorry. I’m here to listen. Hoping for blessings for you. ((((((((((Hug))))))))) ❤️

[Starrlight]

We all need help sometimes.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Starrlight]

I need it badly

[Starrlight in reply to PeaceNeed]

I’m here for you. You can also pm me any time.

[Starrlight]

What do you need? I know where I live there are government assistance programs that help a lot.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Starrlight]

I have to be able to function. And im old now 64. Im on benefits. I made some very bad choices.Now i have boxed myself in a corner. Im panicing as i speak to you.

[PeaceNeed in reply to PeaceNeed]

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[Starrlight in reply to PeaceNeed]

Are there any specific problems that we can help you tackle? Letting it out here could be helpful to get it off your chest …Im glad you reached out that was a good decision you made right there.

[Starrlight in reply to PeaceNeed]

What is panicking you right now?

[Hidden]

Hi Lonepain, I just found this group today and you are the first one I am responding to. I also have made many bad choices in my life and am now paying the price. I am severely depressed and lonely and unhappy and wish God would take me to heaven. I know how you feel. I wish I had an answer for you and for me. I guess maybe this online group is a good thing because it gives us people to talk to who actually understand. I'll be lurking around here reading what people write if you want to chat.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

((((((((Hug))))))))

[Atenns2]

Hi lonepain,

Sorry you are feeling that bad.

I feel so depressed today. I feel sad and hopeless. I am over 60 years old but I am just crying today. I look at my wife and kids today and it made me cry when they asked how I am feeling. They deserve a stronger Dad and husband but depression has worn me out. They try to say kind words but they dont know the anguish and despair I feel. I forced myself to eat one little meal today. I know that God says that He will not treat us as our sins deserve so I still have hope that God will show me mercy and reduce my pain. I have all kinds of physical symptoms and my sight is declining from Glaucoma. May God help us.

[Starrlight in reply to Atenns2]

((((((((((Hug))))))))))

[PeaceNeed in reply to Atenns2]

I talk to God every morning. Plrase take me away. My brother dont get how bad this is for me.I have no energy left to do anything. I live in nyc...its horrible here.

[Atenns2 in reply to PeaceNeed]

Hi Lonepain, I know exactly how you feel. I live in Nigeria where many people don't even understand mental health. I talk to God often too. I couldn't even go to Church today but I spent sometime going through the hymn book. God will help us for sure. He knows best.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Atenns2]

I attended mass last week. A very nice service the priest was Nigerian.

[Atenns2 in reply to PeaceNeed]

Aah, that's great! I feel very bad missing Church today but I texted how bad I am feeling. One faithful Elder called to encourage and pray with me.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Atenns2]

I just wish god would take me already. 😭😭😭😭😭😭

[Atenns2 in reply to PeaceNeed]

Sometimes I wish God will take me too but when I see my kids I want to hang on and take the pains for them. Surely God is merciful and He will visit us at His time with help.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Atenns2]

Thats what my brother says. God in his own time. Im on such agony I wish he would get it over with already.

[Atenns2 in reply to PeaceNeed]

Sorry please. May He give you strength.

[Hidden in reply to PeaceNeed]

Lonepain, I feel the same way today. You are not alone.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Hidden]

Every morning is like this. Its like being in he__!!!@😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[Hidden in reply to PeaceNeed]

I totally agree. I am struggling to stay alive right now. I just discovered this group today and am trying to figure out the navigation. I hope you can feel better today.

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

Welcome, Barbloki!

[Sunrisetabby]

Please try not to blame yourself for bad choices - although many of us have made many of them, I don't think any of us have much, if any responsibility. I was looking recrntly at my copy of Free Will by Sam Harris. He argues that we don't have any free will. I used to think it made no sense. I'm still not sure if it makes much sense. But, I do not that blaming ourselves for what we have done in the past doesn't help anything. Also, I saw you write several places that you were old, and I figured that you must be over 105 - 64 is definitely not old. Hopefully there is some hope of getting some of your mobility back or keeping some of the mobility that you have for the next 40 years.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Sunrisetabby]

Oh my god. 40 years No No No No😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[Sunrisetabby]

One breath at a time. One day at a time. And, foremost, my apologies, I was not trying to say you will be forced to suffer for the next 40 years - I hope you start feeling better today! You are only old if you think you are old, and I will not agree with you that you are actually old until you are 105. Long ago when I was a teenager and learning to drive, I had a neighbor that was 103 that, as my mom would sat, drove worse than any teenager but he had a hell of a lot of fun doing it. Hopefully you can have at least a bit of fun today.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Sunrisetabby]

Thank u for trying. Ive been beaten down by mental health system this money hungry society we live in

[Shnookie]

Please call 988 - Crisis hotline they R compassionate and caring.