Too seldom, especially when I'm really going through hell, do I post here about good things in my life. By now, I have that skittish, superstitious fear common for those of us who've had experiences with depression and mental health that seem like they just always come back...making us perhaps afraid of success and happiness itself.
I've been navigating modern dating in middle age, and in the past few days, made important strides. This weekend, I managed to have an amazing time with the woman I'm seeing who is a psychologist and a badass, despite my current job and financial crisis which had grown progressively into a mental health crisis also.
I've taken some steps, including contacting my former therapist (/also former law professor) who I really want to work with again, set an appointment, gotten back into doing some work in my current law practice, and had a very rare very good appointment with my current Medicaid therapist, dealing with some financial shame, and money and prosperity goals, etc.
I resumed exercising the last couple days. Made a key phone call to a prof at my old law school about possibly teaching AI Law there, which I've been using, reading, researching, writing, teaching, and experimenting with since it exploded last November.
Anyway, its important for me to remember to report the good, since I use this site so much when I'm feeling desperate and hopeless. Here's been an entire weekend and into Monday so far, where I am feeling, and thinking better. I learned a mantra in a support group years ago, "don't question the good," and I try to apply it.
Good morning friends 😄
I don't know if this was a good idea...
Got knocked down
Very anxious
Don't Know what to do
