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Wish my late partner hadn't done so much for me.

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Today i am really struggling to do the most mundane tasks, David really was an amazing man, and he did so much for me, and possibly far to much instead of letting me sort things out myself he would sort anything that was troubling me, and certainly it made my life easier, but it came with a price because i find myself floundering in a sea of uncertainty, even knowing how to inflate the car tyres correctly i find an impossible task, and you might think its easy but with new cars alarms goes off when things are out of cinc and i just cannot do it correctly, I either over inflate or under inflate.

I am so tired of everything, and running a business in the mix is no easy task. I have come so far, but not sure I want to go much further as my stomach is so churned up, and i'm scared, scared of the now and of the future.😪

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Hi Roddy as I get older and finding things harder on my own still have mam's help but we often struggle we can afford workmen there often dodgy or don't turn up as you know, you do have friend tho don't you I know you don't like to bother friends and like to be independent I don't know why life is often a struggle esp for nice people, my mam widowed at age 65 she thought me all I know on DIY and we're still doing it now, we look on u tube a lot for advice videos one day that big house will be sold and yul be free of it sending a hug 🤗💛🌟xxx

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Thankyou Mandy, your words are very comforting, and you are correct, i dont ever bother friends, somehow i look on it as a weakness.xx🥰

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Hi, I’m the same I hate to bother people yet I’m always there for everybody else , I’m always getting told off when I don’t ask for help, it’s just our nature I expect, I was brought up like M to do things for myself which is so helpful in one way but maybe that’s why I’m so independent now.

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hey Arymretep....you are same as me, i loath asking anyone to help me, and like you I'vealways been around for everyone else, and its hard to change the way we are made.

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Were the same I think the more were on our own the more independent we get people offer help but we say no and struggle with shopping esp DIY stuff on bikes 😩 we need stuff now but too cold to bike out I need draft strip 😭I've stuffed tissue in my new door edges that we just fitted, I'm currently decorating front room in pain from moving the TV unit I do instead on solid wood furniture xx

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Hi M , you ok 👍x

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Hi M yes thanks we just been to shop I strained my hip back area hurts around upper leg too think stretching whilst stripping wall didn't help but had cocodomol got to shop ok, looking forward to emulshioning tomorror are you and P ok 🤗xx

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We’re fine, just became a great great Aunt again number 8 😳xx. Are you doing too much?

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Congratulations no but moving doors hurt my shoulder and arms still heeling I don't start DIY until mid day usually only recently stopped cutting back in garden still got 4 branches to sow off cherry blossom tree waiting till the leafes are gone I don't get enough sleep with p waking me cat flap soon but need to get front room finished so can get tree up for Xmas laminate flooring in hall after that I'm just resting now had tea lol bed early I'm exhausted, better to be busy winter than not 🤗xx

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Very true, I’d rather be busy even if I’m K—-D after lol, it’ll be lovely your first Xmas in your own place , I bet you can’t wait, we bought a new Xmas tree last week as the one we had was over 20 year old and it gave up the ghost last Xmas, have a good rest tonight 😘xx

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Thanks yes I havnt been interested last few years but looking forward to my optic fibre tree and the fake candles and my twinklystar light lol be Xmas dinner at mam's and boxing day lunch here I think I need to get pixies presents lol I bought my self some quality street there on the dish have a good night 💛🌟😹X

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LadyZen

I felt like that when I divorced my ex. Just do what you can and get help with everything else. I can't deal with inflating my car tires either. You have to do it right, then reset the alert. So I let the mechanic do it. But there are things that I am able to do from watching YouTube videos. But I had to learn it over time. Just focus on the immediate things, one thing at a time. Don't worry about anything else.

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thankyou, and you are so right, life isn't easy.

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It isn't. But hindsight will give us incredible wisdom.

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Mrspjsmom

Do the best you can. Eventually you will learn all these things but it will take a little time. So for now be kind to yourself.

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