Suffering from Depression, Anxiety and Self-Sabotage

[Svetozara93]

Hi. My name is Zara and I've been sabotaging myself during my recovery journey. I've been sabotaging myself at work and alienating myself from people. In January, I suffered from severe depression and got better, but then I started to hurt myself mentally. I discovered that there are other people like me. I just feel worthless, stupid, useless and incapable. I feel like I've been destroying myself on purpose. It's like I'm hurting myself and putting obstacles in front of me, when it comes to success. My whole life, I've been suffering from low self-esteem. I've read numerous articles on self-help, but it seems to me that that just leads to overthinking. Has anybody ever felt the way I feel? It's like I'm the biggest loser on the planet. Please, talk to me.

[Svetozara93]

Yeah. I understand you completely. Have you found a way to get out from this vicious cycle?

[80sDreamer]

You are not alone. If you need someone to talk to I’m always here.

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based on what you have said, I think you would benefit from studying cognitive behavioral therapy (Feeling Good by David Burns is an excellent way to learn to help yourself with CBT). If it is possible, I think that seeing a psychotherapist could be very helpful for you.

[Tealpillow]

Hi Svetozara93, I’m sorry for your pain - I know exactly how you feel. I want you to know that you are loved and worthy, even when you don't feel that way. You are doing your best, and that's enough. I know you have many strengths and accomplishments, even if they're hard to see right now. You don't need to be perfect, you just need to be you.

I know it’s hard. You are not alone!

[DodgeDhanda]

Hi. S93.

Anxiety & depression ALWAYS comes with helping of self sabotaging & if U can't handle that a massive spoon of doubt is put on ur plate too.

Firstly ur 2/3rds of the battle through. First was to realise the self sabotaging & then admitting to it.

Now comes the hardest & longest battle & that is not letting it stop U from learning & understanding why ur doing it & to actually stop urself from doing it & it will keep happening & hopefully u can learn how to tell the kitchen of life that no more self sabotaging ever again.

Unfortunately the moment everything clicks into place for us all is different some can learn it from a book & get it just like that & others therapy but then there are those of us who can't afford the books or therapy but we still all face the same battle , so I'm sort of saying learn from others what causes triggers in U to stop doing it to urself. I hope U find ur answer in a speedy manner but nothing clicks until the exact moment it's supposed to click & that's after we learn why we do what we do & then stop it.

Lastly

I wish U love & light on ur journey.