living with panic disorder- any tips?

[Takeabath]

I was diagnosed with panic disorder in mid 2022, it was a sudden occurance that traumatized me I fear for life. I had panic attacks that lasted from the moment I woke up to the minute I fell asleep, sometimes waking from them which lasted weeks before I looked for professional help.

I went to intensive group therapy as well as became medicated, it was a very long and horrible journey but I eventually made it to where I didn’t have a panic attack for about 8 months. I felt strong. But last month they have started again, for seemingly no reason. I unfortunately have stopped taking my medication, as I lost my job due to a car accident a few months prior and had no way to afford them. (I lost my job and my car)So I’m having to go all natural yet again. I like to call it “raw dogging life.” I’m anxious now the entire day, and find myself panicking over normal bodily functions that I can sense. With my logical side I know I’m just freaking out for no reason, yet my will alone isn’t enough to stop it most of the time. I try taking daily walks, baths, and other things I find comforting. I just wish it would end, I have stopped doing things I used to enjoy, I’m truly not the same person I am when my partner first met me and they have even told me so. It is heartbreaking to see myself fail after I’ve tried so hard. I’m at my wits end, I’ve run out of ideas and tools to use. I don’t want to be like this anymore. If anyone has their own story, or tips to share, I’m all ears. I don’t want this to be forever. I want to live my life without fear again.

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Hi Takeabath. Love your username btw. I’m sorry things are so tough right now. I suffered with anxiety (panic attacks and generalized anxiety disorder-GAD) for years. I feel your pain. I read on your profile that you want get this under control before starting a family. You are very smart for thinking this way. I took antidepressants and a benzodiazepine while pregnant as doctors believed it would be worse to stop these meds during pregnancy. I was lucky but will always regret taking that chance. There are many Rx discount programs you can join for free, check online. Or state/federal medical aid if you qualify. This could get you back into therapy and get you back on the proper meds. Wishing you the all the best, I know what you’re going through.

[brendahol]

Hi Takeabath, listen, I understand completely how you are feeling and the panic can be overwhelming. I am just like you, I can go a long time and be fine and out of nowhere the panic hits. When it hits I feel like I am losing my mind and I do not want to go anywhere either, I am too afraid.

Anyone who has never experienced this feeling cannot imagine what it is like. The baths, the books, nothing helps when you are going through this.

Have you tried going to emergency? Maybe there they can you some prescriptions. Just know you are not alone.