it goes on

[Boston001]

It goes on and I want it to all stop. After crying for two days, I sit on the edge of my bed, begging and pleading for my heart to just stop. Yesterday I took 3mg of Lorazepam, and two shots of whisky and slept for 18 hours but sadly I woke up, I have the same plan for today. I'm not in pain when I am asleep, people treat me nicely when I'm asleep. I hope I get to dream in death

[IncognitoC]

please contact 988 you should get help!

[gajh]

Please, please call the crisis line. I am glad you are reaching out for support here too. You are not alone.

[AnxiousSilver]

As somebody who usually struggles getting out of bed, I remember you saying this to somebody else here a while back, and thought it was pretty good advice:

"There is no option other that to move forward. Out of bed, feet on the floor every day no matter how hard it is, laugh in the face of adversity as they say. Not a failure, just discovering new ways that don't work "

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Here.. I'm not the best at talking about depression.

All I'm saying is that I struggle with it bad at times too, and I'm just trying to help.