On my way to work today I cried so much thinking about how I wish I could live JUST ONE DAY without my anxiety.
I cried so much because although I know one day this anxiety is going to get better I know I'm FOREVER going to have it.
And the FOREVER scares me.
I feel like I'm trapped in my own mind.
The day I die I will be 100% okay with it because I know I'll finally be FREE.
For the mean time I have decided to figure this anxiety out! I'm not giving up on myself!
Hi Aj29, I hate to hear that you are having anxiety but your attitude towards it is really inspiring. I think by trying to figuring it out and learning new ways to cope with it will help. I wish you the best and am hear if you would like to talk. I am a student trying to learn as much as I can so I can become a counselor and be a source of support for others. Again, your post was inspiring.
Lets just say it. Anxiety sucks! It doesnt just go away on its own. It exists and has to be taken care of sometimes everyday. The first thing you need to do is accept it. Its part of you.. its ok.. then you need to treat it and take care of the symptoms. Meds, therapy, exercise, diet all contribute to helping treat anxiety. Not one thing cures it, but most will make it naturally subside. You have to accept it first and then get help. You are not alone as I type this my anxiety is getting on my nerves and making me feel aches and pains, but I work through it.
Thanks for your reply.
This year I barley started discovering what my anxiety really is. I always knew something was wrong with me. I never understood why or what it was but now I do. I will be getting help. And I'm going to try whatever to figure it out. Not giving up yet.
Sorry to hear you also go through it. It's such a struggle to have to go through.
Sending hugs and prayers your way!
aj29 Dear Soul, My heart goes out to you. I am a long time sufferer of depression and anxiety, how they robe us of the joy of life, I find myself screaming "I want my life back". I know it will come, are you getting any help? I am on an antidepressant that is supposed to help with anxiety Pristiq - I am also on an anti-anxiety med called Buspar x twice daily, and to get me thru the load up my brain stage i am on Lorazepam 3 daily. Because I am Bi-Polar II I also take Lithium. I have functioned before, so I KNOW I will function again. So will You. See if you can find a support group, NAMI is useful and it is no cost, and may be able to lead you to other resources. Hang in there sister, we Can get well, we Will get well. I send you Love, Peace and Serenity. Sprinkle 1.
I am so sorry you go through all that.
Must be tiff having to take all those meds.
Do you notice a big change after taking them?
That's exactly how I feel!!! As if I was robed of my life!!! Like I can't live it because of them anxiety.
I haven't gotten any professional help yet.
I start my second job soon so I'll be able to finally afford to get the help I need..
Thank you for your comment.
Sending hugs and prayers your way! 💜
Here is goes 
I'am in desperately need of someone to talk to, who can relate to what am going through 
Feels hard to go through this alone
Will I ever be the same?
