Martial claws

[MDscientist101]

We fought recently. Since then, the mood in the home has changed. We still tell each other we love each other. However, the intimacy has changed for the worse. I find myself imagining her to be the person she was when I first met her. Then I open my eyes and see a different person. The fight we had left our marks on each other. Hers cut deep and when we talked about our future together it seemed too brief to be resolved. Yet, we apologized to each other and I like to say things are good between us but deep down I worry that a fight may happen again. So, I am currently waiting for employment, I'm broke, and when I say waiting I have one just waiting for background to clear. She wants to go on an anniversary trip soon. I will have to finance it with money I don't have. I'm caught in a whirlpool of emotions and stress that I can't seem to break free of.

[Ellamaye]

I haven't followed your whole story but just to answer about the point of financing an anniversary trip? Don't do anything you can't do it will just put you in more hot water