Right now the only thing that is making me want to hold on to life is that I have a life insurance policy that requires me to continously have it for two years before my family members can get any money if I commit suicide. I hit my two years this January, I don't know how I'm going to want to live after that. Right now I don't feel any joy in anything and I don't know how to feel again. I have tried therapy but I haven't connected with a single person. I'm lost.
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As terrible as that reason to carry on is. At least it will tide you over till hopefully something changes. You obviously love your family . I can't talk cos I keep my stuff to myself but can you talk to them about this ?
My SO and I talk about my mental health a lot and it's started to affect him as well. He doesn't feel as though he is enough and to me he is more than I deserve. I don't want to be even more of a burden to him. And as far as the rest of my family goes, I don't let them know I'm struggling I am the only grandchild and child on my dad's side and the oldest for my mother and siblings. My mother, father, and sister all struggle with their own mental illnesses and I don't want to add mine to theirs.
I am glad that you found this community. You are not alone. You can connect with others here who can understand. Welcome.
I'm sorry that you're going through this is. But life changes, you never know if you'll find a way out and become happy. Don't rob your family of what may come. Life was miserable for me for years but now it's beautiful. I never would've guessed that when I was depressed. This too shall pass though it may be a long time.
What I said didn’t help. Please read the above comments. The feelings go away. Sometimes life can get worst for a bit. But the strength of overcoming your own death is like a metal 🥇. You can do it. I believe in you. 💪 People depend on you. 🙌.
Please hold on. Life is hard, try to stand connected on here and in person with family and friends. I lost every one important to me before I was 17. You matter to more people than you know. Find a good therapist. I know that's easier said than done. Perhaps you need a medication adjustment. Consider checking into the hospital. Do anything and everything possible to LIVE.
Hang in there. Things change.