My depression story. It may help you

[Salmanali]

Me:

I am 45 yrs, an IT professional. I am married. I have my wife and 3 daughters living with me in Middleeast. However my parents are in india.

My depression symptoms:

I suffer from chronic depression. My symptoms are low mood, fatigue, brain fog, an unexplainble feeling inside head due to which i cant function well. Loss of pleasure in doing things, not many friends, not very outgoing or social. I prefer to stay home lying on the couch rather than spend time outside with people. I am pessimistic and always expect bad outcome from anything.

My mood states:

I experience 5 types of mood states. Note that it is possible that i have a mix of these states within a single day. The time in each state varies every month. However i will mention here the average time of each state.

1. Happy: In this state i am happy and excited to do things, go out, talk, work efficiently, make people laugh, play with kids, enjoy good moments.

This state exists for may be 5% of time in any month. I wish i stay in this state for ever

2. Normal: In this state i am content with my life and have no complains. I have moderate energy and i can function almost like a normal person. However i dont get excited or happy easily when good things happen to me in this state. In this state i want to be in my comfort zone without putting energy to try out new things. This state exists for 50% of time in any month.

3. Moderately depressed:

This state exists for 30% of the time in any given month. In this state i dont want to talk much, play with kids or go out. I like to lie down on a couch and watch TV. Nothing can make me feel happy. I dont have energy or motivation to do office work or try something new. I give a fake smile to people and pretend to be happy. I keep wishing that this state ends soon.

I will continue my story... stay tuned and have a pleasant life

[Agora1]

Welcome here Salmanali and thank you for sharing your journey with us.

It helps knowing what each one of us is going through. I'm happy you have

chosen this caring and supportive forum. You are not alone as you will soon

see my new friend. xx