Surrendered

[Downinil]

I’m reaching out here because I’m feeling overwhelmed. I need someone to communicate with. Sometimes I feel like life as it is isn’t worth living. I think that’s called a cognitive distortion. The feeling is not distorted, it’s real. Please help.

[SurvivingEveryday]

Hi Downinil, I am so sorry that you are feeling this way. Know you are NOT alone- I, for one, am right there with you. It sucks to feel this way.

I don't know your story, but I do know that PTSD, depression/anxiety and some other mental health issues REALLY do change your brain chemicals, and the way it behaves. For me, I have memory loss. I will be speaking and forget words, places, sometimes even forget who I am talking to for a moment. It usually comes back quickly, but sometimes not. I feel like ADHD sometimes too, but it is just my mind. Our brains are very tricky things. I have noticed recently that I forget important appointments and directions- I got lost driving one day. It is part of the territory of depression I suppose.

Do you ever feel like your thoughts keep you up at night? I do, but have been using an app called Binaural Beats- it has been helping me a little. Might check it out.

[Downinil in reply to SurvivingEveryday]

I have had som Ed of those symptoms as well. I listen to Solfeggio frequency on You Toub at bedtime. That coupled with my bedtime medication gets me to sleep but within about 4 hours I’m awake. I’m wondering if the sleep deprivation is causing the concentration issues. I’m just miserable.

[jackiesj]

Dear Downinil, I too am where you are.I use meditation on you tube etc but it has been temporary for me.What methods do you use outside medication. This is not me...this is not the real you. i feel the spark that you have a special key ingredient as a human to share care use your experience for a betterment not deterent. Life can be PTSD.....may you have better days monents seconds. hang onto each one....i do believe together we get thru but i do feel so alone. My life was saved with a quad bypass and i ask the Lord why now..i dont mean to be rude but why i exist is important.

[moxoni237]

You are worthy of better understanding and you can be courageous life sometimes depletes us of that sense of awakening and focus a feeling of negative emotion setting new intentions is the source of opening a channel of progression and positive self care you can rise above and build that inner dialogue of purpose seeing new perspectives one day at a time building positive habits leave that which does not serve you’re higher self talking it the key to a full filling life setting and self achieving goals be it a walk of tranquility connection a place of interest relaxation meditation is a good source of listening music or guided meditation gives a sense of value and energetic feeling meeting in groups sharing talk and discussion a chat or coffee maybe if spirit minded if you have a faith maybe the church source of reflection and joy compassion maybe helping to serve tea is a environment which is friendship oriented and compassion and healing and helps remove the void or building up a activity which shared and lightens burdens or volunteering a good focus approach many forms also maybe reading or or seeking assistance with any concerns or worries in health matters l hope you find courage to rise above and the peace that surpasses all understanding guide you and keep you God bless don’t give you can live a fruitful life of self achieving and empowering values

[Hidden]

I feel bouts of this, too - feeling like life is not worth living. Apparently, I manage to pull myself out of it enough to continue to try small (tiny!) things to change my situation. I use this support group, and national & local crisis/warm lines. I called one (yesterday) morning actually and I attribute that to my increased social energy. Sometimes you do get the perfect match that will bring you to the more productive states of mind. Many of these resources are open for use 24/7.

[Downinil in reply to Hidden]

Good morning, would you mind listing the names of some warm lines for me. I’d appreciate it. Have a nice day!

[Hidden in reply to Downinil]

Of course..I hope they help you feel a little better

Suicide Prevention Lifeline: call or text 988

National Warmline: 615-244-7444

State-Specific Warmline (do a quick online search for yours or ask at 2-1-1)

Crisis Text Line: 741-741

[Downinil in reply to Hidden]

Thank-you. How is today going so far for you?

[Hidden in reply to Downinil]

Actually, I missed a night of sleep. This is unusual for me.

[Downinil in reply to Hidden]

I hope you sleep well tonight. You probably will.

[Hidden in reply to Downinil]

😊

[Badbadbeads]

I'm sorry to hear this. I was in a difficult place about two months ago. This website helped. But I started going to senior centers and met people. This has helped me. You might want to seniorplanet.org. Those people saved my life. I wish you the best.

[Trainchaser]

Your post is three days old hope you are in a better place today

[Downinil]

Thanks for asking. I’m a little better today. I woke up feeling better.

[KrierandRosie]

It is real for me, also. Every single day I have to search for reasons to improve my mood. Some days are impossible to navigate. I never find a positive answer. People around me don’t want to hear about. I am on my own.

[gajh in reply to KrierandRosie]

If you are here. You are not on your own. We are here for you. Reach out for the support you need. People here do want to hear about how you are doing.

[KrierandRosie in reply to gajh]

Thanks for the response! I have been on here a long time with no responses. I wish I could meet with a person who is close to me face to face just to talk. I had hoped to be a successful writer, or a successful something. I am not. At age 70, no one will hire me so my working career is over. My days are filled with mundane tasks and nothing to look forward to. That is the way it is.

[Downinil in reply to KrierandRosie]

I’m sure you must have succeeded at something in your life. I know it gets lonely and would be nice to have an actual conversation with someone.

[gajh in reply to KrierandRosie]

I am sorry you haven't had any responses. Have you tried responding in anyone else's post? Sometimes that is a good way to make a connection. Have you considered volunteer work? I don't know what your interests are, but volunteering can be a nice way to meet people. I will be happy to talk to you here. Stay in touch if you want to.

[Downinil in reply to gajh]

I have had responses. I can’t get out of the house so I don’t see how I can volunteer.

[gajh in reply to Downinil]

Downinil my response was to Krierandrosie not to you. Krierandrosie said that their working career is over. I wondered if they had thought of volunteer work. Sorry for the confusion.

[Downinil in reply to gajh]

I just woke up from a nap & was still groggy. Sorry I was confused.

[Downinil in reply to gajh]

Thanks, I do reach out on here when life seems unbearable.