COVID-19 and life anxiety

Hi everybody, I’m kind of scared to write here (first timer) but I guess I feel the need to talk so somebody. It’s been almost a year since we started this pandemic and I’m feeling like I’m reaching a high peak in my mind.

I’m currently living in a different country, went through a breakup and I’m living by myself working from home. My mind just can’t keep up with the loneliness, I find myself crying for no reason and just not been able to communicate how I’m feeling with the people around me. I’m also having phone sessions with a therapist but it’s just not the same, the feeling of just not being able to have a normal life or not knowing when this is going to end makes the days really hard. I just wish all of this would stop so I could at least join some courses and talk to people in person instead of through a screen, I’m tired of doing everything by myself and I don’t know what to do.

[FearIsALiar]

Welcome to the group! Lots of supportive people on here that want to help. I know how you feel. I am so lonely too and I’m going through a breakup! I’m having phone sessions too with my therapist but it definitely isn’t the same. I’ve never met her in person so it’s a bit weird. I had to find a therapist during this pandemic because my anxiety got so bad in the summer.

[FearIsALiar in reply to FearIsALiar]

Everyone is pretty much at a standstill due to this covid stuff but hopefully it will end soon so things can actually go back to normal. How many years have you been living in a different country and why have you moved there if you don’t mind me asking? I am only curious because if you moved there for school I’m sure that can help you make some friends once pandemic is over!

[Hidden in reply to FearIsALiar]

I moved due to better job opportunities and I’ve been living here for a year and a half already. If there wasn’t a pandemic I know I’d be living a way better life, I used to go out with co-workers every week and I have a close friend but even he’s too afraid to go out and see people and I don’t want to pressure him, it’s just boring to go out for walks by myself. Also the topic of not being in my office for almost a year is kind of depressing.

[FearIsALiar in reply to Hidden]

Yeah I know how you feel. Everything will be okay though

[Hidden]

Hello & Welcome

These are bad times and so many in so many different ways are struggling

I don't really know what I can say other than keep in contact with friends via phone and skype and you have found this group now to chat , the vaccines are starting to be done and let's all hope this will soon be over but know you are not alone even for now it has to be more virtual x

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much for the kind welcome. Yeah I decided to reach a friend this afternoon and we were talking for a while, it’s hard for me to ask for help so I struggle with that part. Hopefully the vaccine will help us all in the long run, this pandemic is destroying everybody in different ways

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Hello

I am so pleased you did that this afternoon

If you are in the UK and living on your own you are allowed to have a bubble with one other family or person if that would be an option ?

So many feeling and getting down with all this now but yes I agree let's hope this vaccine soon gets us all back to what we are used to and it will so keep looking forward to x

[hypercat54]

At least you have a job to occupy your mind. I am retired and live alone and my life has virtually stopped and I spend nearly all day on my own.

I used to go to the pub twice a week, lunch 2/3 times a week, work as a volunteer in a charity shop, go down town and look at clothes etc. And also just meeting with friends for a coffee and a chat. It's all gone and I am finding this lockdown really hard. At least during the summer one the weather was glorious, but it's winter now.

I want my vaccination now........

[Hidden in reply to hypercat54]

If you lived near by I would let you join us as a single person you could come and be in our bubble But ten again you might wish you were on your own once you had been to this mad house

I know how hard it must be I do feel so much for people especially those on their own

Hopefully it won't be to much longer before you get your vaccine , think they are on the over 70's now and once they do that you should be next but then thinking about your health conditions you should be even sooner ?

Hope you are soon able to get to that pub and get back to your little job x

[Hidden in reply to hypercat54]

I’m retired too and spend too much time alone. I just found this site and a lot of people seem to have same problem as I do When I get anxious and have racing thoughts I try to do some deep breath’s and Stay in the present moment. And now I CAN USE THIS SITE FOR COMPANIONSHIP.

[Sugold]

I wish I could help you, as well as other who feel in a similar way... what is the hardest thing you have to struggle with when it comes to having these "moments"? And what do you wish for would instead happen/change?

[Hidden in reply to Sugold]

It’s just the feeling of the unknown and not being able to predict a normal life or have the simplest plan like being able to go out to a coffee shop with a book. My mind starts racing imagining the worst outcome and then my heart follows, some days I’m not able to control it so it’ll evolve into a full anxiety attack I just wish normal life when I had control of my mind, I kind of took for granted all the small things that made me happy. Everybody is so kind here tho, thank you so much for the support