Keeping myself afloat for 15 years is wearing me out

[Atthepark]

I've was diagnosed at 26 now 43. Literally every day is a struggle for me w my moods depression anger anxiety idk but I feel like I'm adhd Dr says no. But living the life w mental illness my family does not know what I go thru in my head on a daily basis. I just want some peace in my life and for someone to save me from myself my mind in all reality. It's upset and downs like a roller coaster. It literally wears out my body I'm tired all the time. I just wish I could live a more peaceful life . Without my brain being my own enemy

[Agora1]

Did you know that you can retrain your brain. Right now you are caught in a web

of repetiveness, a habit per se. Don't fight what you have no control over...the family's

position on your mental health will probably not change. By their actions, it only

continues to make you angrier and more upset.

We've got to learn how to pick our battles. Things we can change as well as how

we accept what we can't.

Walking away from upsets and finding a quiet place to call your own for a while

can be very helpful in calming down your emotional state.

I use Meditation and Breathing exercises. I never get into a confrontation with

my daughter. I know what my boundaries are now after many years of struggling.

No more will I allow myself to get onto that roller coaster again.

My life is now peaceful. Not that there isn't stress at times but I know how to

control my emotions. I'm glad you are here with us. xx

[Atthepark in reply to Agora1]

Yes I found my quiet space found those meditation videos

[Agora1 in reply to Atthepark]

I'm happy to hear that. Just remember that once is not enough. It must be

a continued practice each day as if you are saving up for that rainy day that

may come unexpectedly. It usually takes about a month to retrain the brain

or at least have it accept a different way of thinking. But don't stop there,

Use Meditation (of your choices) morning and night. I can almost guarantee

that you will eventually fall asleep before the meditation is over.. Your sub

conscious mind will calm down and think more positively while you sleep.

Nothing is an overnight success, but with time, amazing changes do happen xx

[Nothingnoted]

Hi Atthepark, I can understand what you're going through I know that when you are very depressed you get tired a lot and you have no energy I was diagnosed with 27 years of age and I've been dealing with it for 29 years now it's really hard I know it's not easy I suffer from depression anxiety PTSD and OCD I'm currently on several medications such as Lexapro, Vraylar and Buproprion. I also attend an Nami support group which helps a lot they meet 3 times a week an hour and a half each session and it's very great support and it's very helpful because you're surrounded by peers that deal with exactly what we're all dealing with here if you need the information I will give it to you I'm here for you and Welcome to our group and if you ever need to talk also in person with someone you can also the hotline which is very helpful you don't need to call if you're in crisis either you can call anytime you need to talk to someone you don't have to be in crisis I can also give you that number if you need it just hope you feel better pretty soon and you find support, Nothingnoted

[Atthepark in reply to Nothingnoted]

Can I get a number to call I feel like I'm going down a rabbit hole

[fauxartist]

Maybe get a second opinion, our 29 year old finally got diagnosed properly with adult ADHD, depression, and anxiety...she's now taking a specific med for it and after a few days of her body adjusting to it, she doesn't know herself....she's a new women. I've never seen such a drastic change in someone...she was always anxious and talked a mile a minute....now she is calm....wow. She still takes her SSRI for depression and now has this other med...sometimes if your not drug resistant....they can help.

[Nothingnoted]

800 273 8255 Suicide hotline. They told me you don't have to be suicidal to call them you could just need someone to talk to you and they will be there for you. 24 hours a day 7 days a week just give them a call when you're feeling down they will be there for you there's always someone answering the phone hope this helps you and if you want the number to Nami I will give it to you because they have three meetings a week for an hour and a half a week meeting