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[PeaceNeed]

Wake up every morning wishing I was dead. Ive anxiety over housing and depressed over looses of the last few years.I packed a backpack so i could go off and die in the woofs if i become homeless. I dont know what i want people to say to me about this but i felt impulse to say it.

[PeaceNeed]

I meant WOODS. Hate these G_d Da__d cells

[Starrlight]

I so very much feel for you. I’m so sorry about the difficult circumstances you are in and the way you feel every day. I can relate because I at times worry of homelessness and I used to want to die for a long stretch but things got better… And I so wish that for you. You are here and alive for a good reason I believe …keep writing and PM me any time. We are here for you.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Starrlight]

TY. Too many looses dog, cats, health dep, anxiety friends family all too much

[confit in reply to Starrlight]

I feel that way too. I sleep well (with meds) then I wake up every single day in a panic. There are no specific thoughts upsetting me--just a deeply general sense of illease and panic. Called my doctor and almost begged for a call back to discuss changing my meds---now waiting--not a good thing but, of course, I fear that if I go out and try to do things, I'll miss that so important call. It's endless loop and it's destroying me and my family. So much guilt on top of so much physical distress. Hard ot to lose hope.

[Starrlight in reply to confit]

There’s always hope but I do understand as I have woken up two nights in a row with extreme illease and panic as you very well put it I pray it will not happen to us tomorrow morning…let’s keep in touch and support each other in these mornings , if you want

[confit in reply to Starrlight]

yes. let's help each other. i've been busy trying to get into an anxiety practice and my doctor did call back & is adjusting my meds, as i try to pull together my history . i was totally panicked this morning but still trying to remsin hopeful.

[Starrlight in reply to confit]

(((((((hug))))))))

[PeaceNeed in reply to Starrlight]

TY Starrlight

[PeaceNeed in reply to confit]

Very hatd to do. Meds made me sick. Looking into ketamine clinic.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Starrlight]

I would like to. I try to respond to all feedback. Im alone with my own thoughts too much.

[PeaceNeed in reply to confit]

Constant struggle my health ruined....medical bills

[PeaceNeed in reply to confit]

Ive lost hope. As I type this text I'm so filled with anxiety to the point of paralysis.I just cant deal with this level of psych pain.

[Starrlight]

I hear you. I’m sorry for your losses. I’m listening. Keep letting it out.

[LynnSalv]

Beforehand I am sorry for your losses. Try to stay cool, man, there is no need for such drastic actions. Remember that even though we feel like hell and we may feel that it may never end, there is always a way out. Hope is the last thing that people like us can retain to keep on going. You can let it all out, cry if you need to, let it all out, but dont give up to despair.

Try to think of the things you have left, the things and people you still have and the things and people you can get into your life in the future. It may seem neverending right now but remember that it can get better.

Stay strong, brother <3

[PeaceNeed in reply to LynnSalv]

Thanks. Every morning struggle. I get anxiety and need to do something anything ........

[LynnSalv in reply to PeaceNeed]

I hope you can find what you need to calm your anxiety man, and I hope you get to reach a state of peace, brother, stay strong

[Irisheyes60]

healthunlocked.com/anxiety-.... Check this out.

[Starrlight in reply to Irisheyes60]

love this, I think I’ll print it out and read it each morning

[Mohammad-341]

MY CONDIION IS ALSO not vergood , i have no house , loving in the house of my inlwas i will someone could understand me

[Hidden]

Max, forget this idea of packing your backpack and running to the woods. Just don’t do it. Go for long walks if you need to to walk off the stress but always come back to where you’re living. Keep trying to get the help you need. I know things can be tough to navigate. Stay strong.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Hidden]

It helps to hear from people who care. I've met too many people especially in psych system who just treat you like a number.

[AnxiousSilver]

Max, I know that you are hurting.

A lot of us are hurting (myself included) but you're too important to this community to ever go missing.

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It's hard for me to put into words what to say, without sounding like a hypocrite. (because I go through that feeling too from time to time)

No matter what, we do care.

[PeaceNeed in reply to AnxiousSilver]

Thank you. Mornings bad for me. Waking up alone in apartment sucks.

[AnxiousSilver in reply to PeaceNeed]

"Thank you. Mornings bad for me."

Mornings are usually the hardest part of my day.

I get it.

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"Waking up alone in apartment sucks."

This "kinda" (key word here is kinda) summaries how I felt going almost 2 years without any type of "support" or support group when the pandemic started, until I finally found this place. (after almost 20 years of being in my previous one)

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Each and every one of you (and obviously ADAA) helped gave me a piece of my life back, and I can't tell you all (including you too Max) how much that means to me.

Thank you.

[Blue_81]

Hello Max

I sometimes feel that I will end up homeless. Mornings are horrible and getting through the day is a challenge. Its a chore Keeping up and pretending im okay. The idea of not being able to work scares me. I walk for at least 1hr everyday and that helps me get through the day.

[PeaceNeed in reply to Blue_81]

I try walks to. Around here hard see homeless in park walking in streets. Have to take long trip on train out of city. Im too old to be going thru all this.