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[Against_the_current]

Hello. I am sorry if i bother you. Just i feel so bad i felt bad at home and now that I'm back at my accommodation i can't stop crying. I miss my home, my apartment, my city, mom, sis. Before leaving sis told me that i got her sick and she better had went to live with dad's. I feel so bad for complaining from mom when rn i miss her so bad that i can't stop crying. I feel like I can't take care of myself. Tried to talk with grandma but it only made it worse cause she said her mom is gone. I felt so guilty and so bad that it doesn't go away with time. Tried to talk to a friend but he told me "get high and f some idiot who still lives with parents". I just don't know what i will do with my life. My head hurts like hell. I finally ate the ...ah😭 it's my favourite chicken steak mom bought for me😭i finally ate and got my flu meds and mental health meds and something for my headache. I even installed AI apps to ask for help but they just throw meditations at me. I need someone to comfort me and take care of me. My stupid therapist says it's still baby me who was left to Grandma's house till mom took her exams but once again she gave me crushing information without ways to cope. I'm crying out river Gang of tears

[SoporRose]

If it's better for you to be with your mom right now, then go home and don't feel bad about it. If your sister wants to go stay with your dad for a while, that's all right, too. Would it be better to move out of that apartment and save the money by living with your mom again? It sounds as if she really trying to be a better parent to you and, given time, you two might resolve some issues between you.

But do what's best for you.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

I thought it and now she called me furious that i called my grandparents

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

I replied to you in a different post that I do not understand why your mom is upset. What's wrong with calling your grandparents? Even if your mom is upset about that, which place is better for you to stay right now?

[Mohammad-341]

i m sure that you can manage your things better forgot about therepist- my psychiatrist declared me abnormal in every way but now for last 5 years i m drug free and living normal life.

[Tealpillow]

Awwwww sending you love and (((hugs))). And another one for good measure (((BIG HUG))). Try to take some deep breaths - moving is a huge change and people like us that struggle with mental health can have a particularly difficult time managing the emotions. I’m sorry your family isn’t being supportive and your mom got mad at you when you are already in a vulnerable state. You don’t deserve that

[SoporRose in reply to Tealpillow]

Well said.

[WickNeo]

My heart hurts reading this. Try to not make Any life changing situations while you’re this distraught. Sometimes when big changes are made, there’s an adjustment period that includes sobbing. Sobbing and yawning can be neurological resets. Doesn’t always feel good while it’s happening

I know what you mean about the meditation apps. They make me cringe and shut them off.

It’s natural to want someone to take care of you when you’re sick and feel bad. Maybe, your mom or grandma can come to you for a weekend or day visit while you are recovering.

Maybe call a crisis line if you can’t stop the crying after too long. I hope this helps.

[CLB1125]

I feel bad for your situation. Meditation never worked for me either. Maybe you could find a place to live close by your mom’s house so you can go visit with her but still have your own space when they stress you out. I found journaling helps me when I’m stressed. I wish you love.