Loud thinking

[pratyaya_23]

Im running after things which are not possible. Im chasing emotions not meant for me. Im expecting from wrong people. Im investing my energy at wrong place. Im always on roller coaster ride of guilt. Im living in illusions, in dilemmas, ignorance. Im not accepting realities. Im not accepting facts. Im pushing my limits for wrong reasons. Im afraid of being alone. Im gasping for breath. Time is running out. Im fading away.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

Having self awareness is a big step. Are you working through these issues with a professional? I identify with most of the traits you listed, but the next step is to change these things. I practice replacing them with the opposite.

If I have unreasonable expectations, I try to go with the flow and take a reality check about what’s really happening. If I am expecting more of myself than I can possibly do, I try to accept my limitations. And work on my perfectionism.

I have let people go in my life, if they don’t meet my qualifications for friends. I set boundaries. I believe we teach people how to treat us. And it often begins with how I’m treating myself.

May your journey become easier.

[fauxartist in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

I learned a long time ago not to expect things from others because I may do those things for them. We have to do things because we want to and not expect anything in return, then we don't get disappointed. I also know there are takers and givers in life....a healthy balance is better.

[fauxartist]

I can identify with wanting to be in relationships with emotionally unavailable people, which is an oxymoron....but for those of us with trust issues from abandonment as kids...it's actually safe for us to want someone who is unobtainable in the sense that we don't fear being hurt. But an unrequited love actually is very painful. Love is alway a chance, it can be fleeting, and it can hurt....but when you really do find that someone who just seems to fit for all the right reasons, unconditional love...someone who gets your quirks and issues...it's pretty amazing.

[pratyaya_23]

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