Thinking out loud

[Bluekayak]

So I have had some very good days lately, but tonight.....

I spent the day with my best friend at her house and it was lovely. We had fun; I felt normal, even happy.

I said good bye and got in my car to leave. As I near the parking lot to my apartment I was overwhelmed with sadness and began to cry.

The thought of coming home to an empty apartment night after night after night hit me. I felt so alone, I didn’t even get out the car after I parked for a good 10 minutes.

I don’t know.. yeah, I shouldn’t compare my life to anyone else’s. I guess I just wish someone would SEE me. I don’t really care that I’m single; I know my time will come... I just mean that I wish I didn’t have to feel so alone.

[Hidden]

sadly the downside of going out and having fun is the emptiness once the day or time period is over, the quiet and stillness, have you got any hobbies or things you can do once you get back home, coming on here is good cause you get someone to talk to many others who are alone, I put the TV on as soon as i get home or youtube, play games online to take my mind off it all

Think you just have to hold on and know that better times will come, take care have a great night

[Bluekayak in reply to Hidden]

Exactly! I try to stay involved in little projects when I’m at home. Reading or listening to music helps sometimes. Thank you; Hope you have a good night as well!

[Hidden in reply to Bluekayak]

yeah good idea you learn how to cope and make it better and you get to know its coming to so get better prepared when my adult kids come for the weekend sometimes it is fantastic until they leave, the silence is deafening so now, I put music on clean and sometimes cook or bake

[Bluekayak in reply to Hidden]

Yes, it’s almost like a hangover of sorts. The quiet really sobers you up. I’m just taking it day by day

[Hidden]

Hate you ended up in tears. Keep focused on the positive and all the fun you did have. Continue to reach out and do those fun things that make you happy. There is so much good in store for you and it will happen when you least expect it. Stay strong. Hugs💞

[Bluekayak in reply to Hidden]

Thank you 💙

[froggymom88]

Do you have any friends or family that you can Skype or face time. Even if it's just a 10 min or 15 min. chat. I do it with my grandkids. It works wonders because you talk to people but see them too and It alleviates the loneliness. Play some music, read a book, plan some activities, take an online class are a few other suggestions. Hugs.

[Ann10]

You are doing all the right things. Having hobbies is a great way to feel satisfied and productive while you have some spare time. It is wise to bit.ly/take_steps to prevent feeling overwhelmed.