Choice of employment exacerbates anxiety.

[tsukiii]

Title says a lot. I work in healthcare, typically providing care for 8-20 people per shift and between the lack of staff and abusive management, I get so anxious at the thought of something going south during my shift that I hardly even show up anymore. It doesn't make it any better that as a half functional adult I don't have a choice in coming to work or not. How do I cope work workplace anxiety? Currently hiding in the bathroom.

[Loner41]

I literally broke down in tears when I read this I know exactly what your going through I’ve had the same experience with the current job and the last ones I’ve worked it’s really hard to deal I still show up everyday for myself even when it’s hardest for me to and I’ve actually had comments made about how people with mental health can get fired it came off more as a threat I don’t have any answers but I have taught myself to go to safe place astral projection my head while in physical form there just to not have to deal with the things management does even though I’m suffering mentally I have to fight for the strength to escape mentally they will try and drain your energy so you can’t protect your self but so I can do my job because I have to pay my bills I have to my heart really goes out to you because it’s really hard I hope things get better for you ❤️

[tsukiii in reply to Loner41]

Oh forget about it, I wouldn't tell these people anything about me, lest they deem me a danger and fire me. Work ended up going as well as you'd expect taking care of 21 people, I left an hour late and had a nurse accuse me of stealing the keys to her med cart. My mind goes through every possible scenario about what could go wrong during my shift and it's so exhausting and that's just when I wake up.

[Loner41 in reply to tsukiii]

I know and the only reason I did is because of some of my co workers that were going through it mentally as well and to help them like “ aye I be going through it too your not alone “ type stuff a short while after they fired a girl that was going through mental issues and the manager was like saying it like anybody else can get it too I don’t be with the drama or telling all my business like everyone else does do so they don’t like that it I don’t really care honestly that’s just not me and mad cause they are perverts I it’s a mess the way management is at some of these jobs then the big people owning around they smiling like they don’t be doing s*** but accusing someone of stealing keys when you know they didn’t do it is crazy it is very exhausting and draining to have to mentally process your day before it even starts I know that feeling I hate it it’s the worst

[tsukiii in reply to Loner41]

You'd think that since these are a group of people who sees people at their lowest and most vulnerable, that they'd be less judgemental but with the exception of a rare few, these are the most judgemental women I've ever met. It's dominated by middle aged women, I don't work with any men or anybody my age and that's a whole different struggle. Maybe it's menopause making them pissy idk.

Gotta pick up 3 shifts this week if I wanna afford stuff I like to do

[Loner41 in reply to tsukiii]

Thays crazy I’ve had that issue before a bunch of older women and now I’m with a bunch of mixed aged people and it’s the same judgmental and don’t even know you it’s seems that are just trying to find a fault and I don’t claim to be perfect ever but they just to a bunch of messy s *** and then I still show up and they have this surprised look like after all I keep doing to you , you keep showing up and the activities get worse like you said besides a free these men can’t keep their d*** in their pants and conduct business and be whole married with kids and tryna get some workplace side piece I’m like you literally have done everything but directly say it to me and get mad cause I don’t play that I’ll dead kick you in you d*** and other women just be falling all over them idiots these women are desperate for any man to compliment then they don’t even care if their married or not and there so dumb your telling on yourself your screwing one of your secretaries and your married and then looking like your the best thing since sliced bread and if that’s what you do cool but I have a problem when you trying to force yourself on me I don’t want you as a woman you can pick up when men are just eew it’s a nasty feeling I get I’ve been abstaining from sex for 3 yrs and I can pick up on it it’s crazy the stuff that goes on but why I gotta be uncomfortable around you to make my money because I have bills to pay it’s unreal

[Loner41]

I have childhood trauma with men that can’t keep their hands to themselves and I did nothing to provoke that so it’s hard I gotta deal with that at work and my depression and anxiety it just is ridiculous

[catsrock]

I'm so sorry - sounds very difficult. Whatever self-care you can do would be good. If hiding in the bathroom and taking some deep breaths helps, go for it. I hope you are taking all of your scheduled breaks, lunches, etc..., as those are so needed in these situations. I hope things are better soon.

[tsukiii in reply to catsrock]

I wasn't able to take a break 🥹 got my steps in though. I don't even often get a moment to myself because I will have someone who requires my attention or inquiring about where I've disappeared to because again, someone needs something. Didn't sit down for 4 hours straight at one point, had to walk the 30 minutes home afterwards anyways all tired and agitated and I didn't even get so much as a thank you for busting my ass all night. It's not like I get compensation for working this short either.

[catsrock in reply to tsukiii]

I'm sorry.

[Thankfulforhelp22]

Sorry to hear about your struggle. Who helps the people who help others? You deserve and need to get help as much as anyone. I hope you can get it soon. Praying for you.