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[PolarBear1982]

I believe I have lived with depression most of my life. I would mask it by distracting myself or diverting my attention.It got to an overwhelming point for me over the last 10 months. My wife of nearly 2 decades asked for space in our relationship. Something that frankly I couldn't understand or give to her.

She is currently living with our children with extended family and has no desire to return to our home. As for our relationship she says she feels like she is drowning when she is around me and it is painful for her to be in my presence. She encouraged me to seek professional help.

So now I am home alone and feeling so isolated. I don't really have any friends or social connections. I'm not on social media. It's so difficult for me to live here with our stuff and the memories and to realize they're gone and likely not coming back.

I went to the doctor today and started on medication for depression and anxiety. She referred me to a counselor but said there are not really any decent counselors around and not enough to keep up with demand. So I'm not sure if I'll get anywhere with that.

I asked the doctor about a support group for connecting with others in a similar situation who understand and can relate to where I'm at. She wasn't aware of any but encouraged me to look online so I googled it and here I am writing this post.

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I’m not sure what to say to help. I’m sorry you’re in this situation. Try to see if there’s anywhere else around where you could get some counseling.

[Agora1]

Hi PolarBear1982, this is one time I praise Google for directing you to us.

This is a great understanding support group of virtual friends. We listen as

we share our own journey with our mental health issues. We learn through

each other. We feel so not alone. I'm so happy you have reached out to us.

Welcome new friend....it's going to be okay. xx