Broken in all the right places?🧐🤔

[LifeIsThePitts]

This is me. I have permanent nerve damage on the majority of my left side from shoulder to hand to hip to shin. I have every excuse to wallow in self pity and take out my frustrations on the world and people around me...and I have, believe me. 2 Lower back fusion surgeries 5 days apart in '16 and a week in the hospital and 2+ yrs of walking with a walker and cane, spinal cord stimulator implant surgery in '17, both my rotator cuffs have been surgically repaired in '18 & '19, lost my gallbladder during the pandemic in '21 and had my neck double fused last April '22.

I'm TRD, GAD, PTSD, Panic attacks, disorderd eating, body dysmorphia issues, childhood sexual abuse victim, addiction and substance abuse... this is my baggage. But it doesn't get to own OR define ME.

I'm finally rising above my "crutches" and coming to terms with my dark side. Owning ourselves is a cathartic revelation. Yin ☯️ yang, dark light, good bad, star wars had it right...the Force is in us all, it's how we cultivate it that matters.

academyofideas.com/2023/04/...

This 3 min read is about facing your dark side in order to fully embrace yourself and accept who you are. This was an eye 👀 opener on many deeper levels. Commit yourself to YOURSELF and investigate You instead of following the false idols of influencers, whatever the EFF these guys are about, Reality TV, which is SCRIPTED, and celebrities that can't commit to anything for longer than a hot second! Find your comfort from within, seeking it from our heavily broken society only fosters more misery and pain.

[Sillysausage234]

ouch …neck operation looks painful

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to Sillysausage234]

It was a doosey!!

[Marysblue]

This is an awesome post. I'm reading the Jung now..thanks!

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to Marysblue]

Thanks for your kindness 🙏 my mistakes can be transformed into wisdom if others learn from them.✌️☯️

[Boston001]

Thank you for sharing your wisdom

My MRI

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to Boston001]

I hope to help others by sharing my mistakes and in the process decouple the negative outcomes of my untreated mental health, like addiction and food issues and self image problems, from my preceived identity and build a healthier version of myself.

Is that a TUMOR? 😨

[Boston001 in reply to LifeIsThePitts]

This was 2010, Fortunately they didn't fine anything wrong. They were mainly looking at a lump on my thyroid but they did my whole head while they had me in there. I bugged them to burn me a disk with all the images so I could use them in art projects.

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to Boston001]

Well that's pretty cool 😎

[LifeIsThePitts]

Thank you so much for your love and encouragement. I feel like I'm the newbie here trying to cut my baby 🦷 teeth and be accepted into the group, ya know? But I insist that my reasons for being here are primarily for healing and support and most IMPORTANTLY, LEARNING!! Without learning, there is no growth. I've lived repeating my same old destructive cycles for the majority of my life. I'm finally releasing myself from those self imposed shackles and trying to seek out my higher potential.

As long as I don't lose sight of those goals.... I'll be ok.

[Boston001 in reply to LifeIsThePitts]

I whole heartedly agree. I keep asking who, what, where, when, how? regardless of how well I think I know the answers

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to Boston001]

Exactly!! I find myself asking "WHY, WHO, WHEN, WHERE, HOW is this thought or action serving my purpose"...If the answer is NO, I've got WERK to do...I'm pretty effing BUSY these dayz🤣🤪🤭

[Boston001]

This was 2010, Fortunately they didn't fine anything wrong

[Lucy2023]

Fantastic post; I'm in awe of what you wrote. Thank you for demonstrating strength and inspiring courage. I'm sorry you've experienced so much pain.

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to Lucy2023]

Hi Lucy2023... just trying to bring a different aspect to the forum these days. Lots of angst and uncertainty unfolding with various members. Thought I could redirect the narrative to include self awareness and introspection. That always sheds a new light on the conundrum.

[designguy]

Love your positive attitude and amazing journey so far, you truly are a strong woman and an inspiration, thanks for sharing. I totally agree that we don't get to choose what comes our way but we do get to choose how we respond to it and deal with it and although it can be painful as hell, shining a light and acknowledging our shadow parts helps lighten our load and provides more peace.

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to designguy]

Awwww☺️ thanks, designguy. I appreciate your compassion and support. I'm in a really good stable place for the first time since I can remember. It's been a hard fought battle on many fronts, but I finally feel I'm winning the war, ya know? My experience here has been extremely beneficial as well.

Thanks for listening to my story. I'm glad I can be helpful to many others like us. I'm finally ready to meet my whole self.

[designguy in reply to LifeIsThePitts]

You're very welcome, glad you feel like you are winning the war and embracing your whole self it's a wonderful place to be.

[Starrlight]

Thanks! Great info on the unconscious mind/our shadows… I have a book called Shadow Dance and a book on Jungian theory.

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to Starrlight]

Always looking for information to hone the perspective on myself. Helps me a lot. Shadow dance sounds good too!