i need help

[friends_ncis]

i have been through a lot in my life. i have been raped by 2 people multiple times. i have ptsd, anxiety, and depression. i keep falling for the wrong guys. and i keep losing friends left and right. i don’t know what to do anymore. i feel like i lost myself. and i hate myself for that. i just don’t know what to do anymore. please help me. my anxiety is getting so bad i can barely sleep.

[Nothingnoted]

I am so sorry that happened to you just remember you are not to blame they're the ones that are monsters and I'm so sorry kiddo just remember you're the innocent party is there a crisis group where you live I know where i live there is a Rape Crisis group where I live. Please don't blame yourself you're the victim here and your innocent

[Nothingnoted]

We are here for you this is a great support group I don't know if you're in the United States or not but there's a group called Nami say me like three to four times a week and I think they're in every state of the United States if you need information for the one that I attend in California I will give it to you because they discuss a lot of mental ill issues and also people who have had trauma. Also you can call the hotline if you need ever need someone to talk to in person they are available 24/7 I think you dial the 988 crisis line and you will be hooked up to someone who will listen to you even if you're not suicidal so just listen to you and offer your feedback and help you

[Nothingnoted]

800 273 8255 Hotline

[Nothingnoted]

I called them about 15 times last year about four times this year they are very helpful I wasn't suicidal but I was feeling really desperate so they were really helpful and caring and actually feel really better after the call