Feeling Alone

[JennJenn916]

Hi All,

I am new to the forum, and I am in some serious need of community. I have been battling anxiety, depression, and CPTSD for many years. I did manage to have my symptoms under control for the last year and a half. However, over the last three months I have been experiencing a lot of back to back to back tragedies, and I am breaking.

My oldest son went into the hospital and was placed on a 5150, which was a devastating experience. He was gone for nearly a month in and out of different facilities. We have Kaiser, which has made the experience a million times more frustrating. He got out about three weeks ago, and now he is back in.

During all of this, I was struggling to get over a pretty wicked bout of bronchitis, my car had back to back to back repairs ($8,000, and still has another $2500 repair needed), I had to go no-contact with my narcissistic mother, my grandfather died, and now my s/o left the house to get space.

I feel very alone, abandoned, helpless, hopeless…life just feels so very impossible.

[Nothing_but_books]

Hi JennJenn. Welcome to our forum. This is a great community.

I just wanted to mention there's another forum here that may be helpful. It's called "Heal My PTSD". You'll meet people there with first hand experience with trauma.

[coco09]

I’m so sorry. My heart goes out to you. Sending so much love and you’re not alone.

[northwoodboy]

Hi JennJenn, I just posted for the first time today and wanted to remind you as Coco did that you are definitely not alone. These insistent streams of uncontrollable negative thoughts, many of them irrational as far as the worst case scenario perspective, are very hard and when combined with actual large shit sandwiches certainly foster these feeling of hopelessness. My only practical thoughts are to remember and to focus on the times when you were not on the Titanic and life was not this dark, twisted unbearable existence.

[catsrock]

I'm very sorry - that is a lot! Welcome and keep posting here whenever it works for you. We are hear to listen.