TMS Update

[LifeIsThePitts]

The last month has been a nightmare of trying to reign in my rampant anxiety. I'm honing in on a treatment schedule for my monthly TMS maintenance appointments in order to maintain optimal remission results. So far I've had 5 weeks, 3weeks, and 5 weeks between monthly sessions.

Five is definitely too long. The last week has been pretty unhinged for me. Feeling like I have to escape imminent danger and peril at every little disruption. My workplace has been a nightmare for triggering me into uncontrollable emotional angst and my sleep has been interrupted... usually sleep is my refuge, and I've been up at all hours of the night with nightmares and anxiety.

3 weeks was a reschedule that had another conflict that took precedence and it turned out it was kinda necessary as it bumped right up against the financial fraudulent assault we are still trying to resolve from the end of Feb that spun me out in a pretty severe trauma response I'm still working out. Which also has contributed to the ongoing anxiety issues I've been dealing with for this past month, too.

So I'm scheduled for 4 weeks out this month.

This is the second morning after my treatment. I'm so much calmer. My mind isn't racing. My fight flight response is no longer making me feel like I have to flee. I don't feel like crying the minute I open my eyes. Im not dreading going to work today....yet. (haha) I got out for a run and walk with the pups and hubby without having to talk myself into it. I cooked all my meals yesterday without procrastination and bargaining with myself. AND i went to visit my friend with breast and liver cancer as she's homebound watching her advanced Alzheimer's mother while medicare finds her a new assisted living arrangement as her coverage ended at her previous location last month forcing her to be discharged with nowhere to go. So my life isn't so bad, eh? Haven't done any outside socializing since Labor Day at a bbq that completely exhausted me. Now I remember WHY I don't go out.

Let's see how the month goes... because better IS better 😜

[LilyAnnepuppy]

I started my second round of TMS Tuesday. The first one lasted two and a half years. I was fortunate. Am hoping for good results again.

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

I wish I had that long!! 3-4 months and I'm right back to bedridden agoraphobia.

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to LifeIsThePitts]

Sorry to hear that. But I’m glad you get some relief.

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Looks like a session about every 4 weeks is what my brain is currently requiring to maintain stability and functionality. AND I strictly follow diet exercise and sleep patterns. I'm going through perimenopause now and I think that's disrupting and exacerbating EVERYTHING mental. I look like a teenager with ACNE through the roof. My cycles come every 16 days to 3-9 months apart. Whacked out hormone fluctuations and PMS and mood swings, night hot flashes, draining fatigue...I cannot wait for this emotional and physical nightmare to end. It's been about 2 yrs of this as it's continued to escalate and I'm wondering how long it will go on.

[Elizabeth830]

Glad to hear things are looking up!

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to Elizabeth830]

👋 Good morning! Just enjoying breakfast and listening to this 30 min YouTube video on cancer curing mushrooms. I visited my girlfriend yesterday that has liver and breast cancer. She was diagnosed right before Xmas. This is the link in case you're interested. Awesome information. youtu.be/7agK0nkiZpA(Not working as expected?)

Talk to you soon. Gotta go to work today 😔

Breakfast

[EndUser13]

It's nice that things are a bit better, I hope the continue to head in that directions. Hug your pups for me! They are SO cute

[LifeIsThePitts in reply to EndUser13]

Hey there 👋🤗 thanks SO MUCH for all your support. I can't believe 🤯 how much better I'm feeling after my TMS appointment Tuesday. But after 14 months of this experience, it continues to prove that noninvasive treatment modalities CAN be the Holy Grail of keeping depression and anxiety at bay.

I will definitely give the kiddos big snuggies from you, my friend

Pups

[designguy]

Glad to hear the TMS is still working for you and you are getting it dialed in better, better is better! And, i'm still doing better!