Why am I try what for

[AXXES2]

It's my birthday today and can't even celebrate don't have friends with I can hangout with today in person this is horrible. I ever hurt anyone or anything all I've done is love and support but end up like this can't even smile no one that would shake my hand or hug or anyone I can smile to on my birthday again not the first 2nd or 3rd or 4th time I spent a so called special day all alone😔 wish I was dead

[downinthecrud]

Man, I'd give you a bro hug if I was there. If you are feeling suicidal PLEASE at least call someone. We all want you to live.

[AXXES2 in reply to downinthecrud]

I got no one to call no friends at all part of why I feel this bro hate my life

[downinthecrud in reply to AXXES2]

I really understand that feeling. I’m trying to get out of a really tough situation myself. You can call ‘warm’ lines, just google warm line in your area. Try, try, try to put yourself in social situations, anything. A coffee shop, a bookstore. I’ve convinced myself that it’s not worth doing any of those things, but that’s a lie. Depression is a thief and a liar. Don’t believe it.

[Hidden]

the best day should be your birthday. Try to remember good times. Thank you for listening

[Celtic27]

Hi axxes2 happy birthday ! I'm sorry go hear how down you are the friends you had shouldn't have been there for you but you can and will meet a new and better class of friend ! Can I just say you don't want to give up as It wouldn't solve anything any problem please give your self a chance

[AXXES2 in reply to Celtic27]

I hear you but let's b honest no ne would miss me all they'd say is wow he was so nice and quiet and then they move on

[b1b1b1]

I'm sorry AXXES2, but try to remember that you are young and there are many more birthdays ahead of you. I am willing to bet that you will not be spending all of them alone. Here is a hug (((((((AXXES2))))))))). Even though it's virtual I still mean it. x

[AXXES2 in reply to b1b1b1]

^crying^sitting at bar alone

[b1b1b1]

When you are feeling a little better try to go to places where you have a chance of meeting people. Sitting in a bar alone is guaranteed to make you more depressed. xx

[Arymretep]

Someone put a birthday post on here for you today and you had lots of greetings , which shows others do care about you, here’s another one for you

Happy Birthday 💐xx

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to Arymretep]

There are 23 we’ll wishers on the other birthday post.

[Starrlight]

Happy Birthday AXXES2 ! ❤️

[designguy]

Happy birthday AXXES2, sorry it's not the way you would prefer it to be, hugs to you.

[Horsesarebeautiful]

Happy belated birthday! Just saw your post. I know how you are feeling. Birthdays, Thanksgiving, and Christmas/New Years for me has mostly been spent alone, for the most part. For years. I'm in the habit now of isolating myself even more. (Not good, I know.) I'm also trying to find a purpose. I know how hard it is and how painful. You made it out to a bar which is a bit of a social situation. Just don't over drink and depress yourself even more. Go home, eat, put a movie on or some music you like. Distract yourself, get your mind on something else for right now. That's what I do. It also helps me tremendously to volunteer somewhere, doing anything. It keeps me busy, distracted and helps to concentrate on others for a while. And, complete strangers are SO grateful for what you do for them. We will find light at the end of the tunnel.

[CL3V3R-G1RL]

Sorry to hear that AXXES2. Birthdays and holidays can be tough when you don't have anyone 😞

But I would like to remind you that you do have folks that care. Granted we all live in different states and countries. However we are here for you. You may not think your life doesn't matter. I know I used to think that. I used to think nobody will miss me when I'm gone. However that's not true. You made a difference in someone's life. You may not know it. But you being here made a difference for them ❤️

Happy Birthday to you. I wish you peace and love on your special day. May you get that this year 🥂🫂

[RMHiker]

I know what you mean. Ive spent some birthdays alone too. I've also found that I can't rely on others to make my birthday special, so I like to plan to treat myself! I always take the day off from work, maybe a few days, and go somewhere nice like the beach, have a good meal, or do something I really enjoy like hiking. Like the others, I truly wish you a happy belated birthday 🎂

988 is the new national hotline to call for suicide and mental health crisis intervention. You can call for any crisis or if you just need someone to talk to and they'll connect you to your local call center 24/7. Spread the word!

[Tara52]

Happy Birthday! Sending you a birthday hug. I have spent many birthdays alone. The mind will go into self pity if you don't control it. Alcohol makes it harder to take control of your thoughts. Buy yourself some cake and ice cream and watch a funny movie. 😊💝

[MaggieSylvie]

Well, I wish you many happy returns. Tuesday is not a good day for a celebration if all your friends are working. Most people arrange to celebrate on the nearest weekend. You are quite lucky. My birthday is Christmas Eve and my partner doesn't even consider my birthday to be a special day - Xmas is the special day. The only day in the year that he celebrates is Xmas and his own birthday. We both need a few more actual friends. I hope you do manage something this coming weekend.

[Hidden]

Hello AXXES2....

I just wanted you to know you are not alone.

I too think I am a good person who has never hurt anyone. I have Major Depression and I'm just in pain.

I am the oldest of 10 children and I don't usually hear from anyone

You are very young.

Please don't give up.....looks like a lot of people on this site like you.

I know that does not help so much when nobody is there in person.

Susan/Hanah500

[Ryanlion]

You are not alone in your situation, so many people feel alone & unloved all over the world. Dont get hung up on a birthday, its just another day really. Are you an animal lover because they give lots of love. If you get a dog take it walking and you will meet people. Join clubs, groups anything to get out & mix. I feel like you, i have given alot out to others but got very little back in friendships. Of course i am a lot older. I would suggest not being a doormat and start giving & caring about yourself. You were created to have a good life. As corny as it sounds, love yourself first, then you will attract people that love you. You deserve it.

[metalminded]

Happy Birthday AXXES2!

I’m sorry you feel so alone and down. I’m sure many on here have been in the same spot you are. I definitely was!

Is there something you’re passionate about? Music, history? I mention those because they are mine. I attend record shows and often meet new people there. Or join a history group like a Civil War Roundtable ( I’m sure there is one near you), join an fraternal organization like the Sons of the American Revolution or Sons of Union Veterans of the Civil War ( I’m a member) you will meet others there who will become good friends!

Maybe a book club at your library. There are so many options a lot better than sitting in a bar drinking.

Feel free to PM me for more information on the groups above!

[dianaluz45781073]

My friend, don't think that, look at the fact that at this moment many people are losing their lives and would like to live, you know that you have this group, your family and friends and if you put a dose of enthusiasm and attitude into it, you will get ahead. A hug

[Boston001]

I know it's a customary cliché but Happy Birthday! Have you ever heard of "Box Breathing"? I've been feeling shitty lately too. The other day, rather than falling back on my old bad habits of overeating in front of the TV. I went for a walk in the woods, not much nature this time of year on our local trails, but walking and box breath for a few hours really helped break up the funk. I actually felt human for a few days. Today I'm freaking out though, going for my first TMS treatment. Strangers and waiting rooms are very difficult for me

[Jsteve36]

You are far better off alive my friend.I too am the same, I give and give and give but end up sad and alone.

My 38th birthday is this Friday, March 10th. So we both have something in common , March birthdays.

Happy birthday my friend.

You are more valuable to this world than you know.

[AXXES2 in reply to Jsteve36]

My friend I hope ur birthday is awesome that day can't wait I'll b here 4 ur bday

[Jsteve36 in reply to AXXES2]

I appreciate that my friend.Another thing that helps me is watching videos by Shawn Boland on Facebook, very knowledgeable guy and awesome sense of humor.

Always remember you are valuable no matter what your brain tries to tell you. Keep your head up and keep stepping in the right direction and you will get to where you want to be and be who you want to be.

[Pitalife]

Treat yourself,I had to move to help my mother and I haven't met anyone in 7yrs,so I know the feeling,my anxiety n panic attacks keeps me away from the public eye,Hope you can treat yourself n treat yourself to nice pizza or a good movie..people aren't cracked up to be w that much anymore..society becoming unglued since the big covid hoax..

[Mumbutterfly]

There’s a growing trend for people to throw birthday parties for theirselves and to celebrate birthday months instead of just the day since scheduling events has become so hard with so many different work schedules.

Last year, I did the birthday month thing alone but with self compassion and enjoyed it. This year was my 60th and my kids all got to be here. It was definitely the best birthday I’ve ever had. Two very different experiences. I much prefer this year’s but last year’s was made better by celebrating alone instead of not celebrating at all.

Next year, I may get brave enough to throw myself a party or at least ask my kids to celebrate with me at some point during the month separately if they can’t all be here together.

Anyway, you have the rest of the month to celebrate however you choose and it looks like you have friends on here who value your friendship even if they can’t celebrate with you in person. Hope you have a very happy birthday month!!

[Curry223]

happy belated birthday!

It’s your day. F everyone else

[ntkk101]

I understand how you feel. Happy birthday to you, my friend!

I think there is someone for you in this big world, one day he/she will smile at you and show you love and support as well.

Wish you all the best!

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry,