Throughout my life, I have grappled with both anxiety and a highly sensitive personality trait. It has been a challenge to share my experiences and connect with others, particularly where I grew up. I worked hard despite of my mental struggle and became a doctor.
Despite this achievement, I now find myself at a crossroads. While I pursued medicine because I felt it was expected of me, it does not align with my authentic self. My anxiety played a significant role in my decision-making, leaving me feeling disconnected from my passions and struggling to form social connections. As a result, I find myself searching for purpose and fulfillment, often feeling unproductive and useless.
At this stage in my life, I am uncertain of what direction to take to rediscover meaning and joy. It feels like I am starting from scratch in rebuilding a life that aligns with my true identity and provides me with a sense of purpose.
I am uncertain whether there exists an individual who has undergone an experience similar to mine and has emerged on the other side, seeing a ray of hope. I yearn to encounter someone who can instill a sense of optimism in me, assuring me that everything will eventually turn out well, but alas, I have yet to cross paths with such an individual.
It is possible that my anxiety impedes my ability to forge connections with others. I harbor a fear of being emotionally wounded, preventing me from engaging with others fully. Nonetheless, I remain hopeful that I may someday come across an individual who has faced analogous circumstances to mine and discovered a viable solution.