I took care of my mother. I lived in the same house. I am 34 years old, single, no kids, no husband. I spent full time taking care of my mother for the months she was at home. I never resented taking care of her. She had me at age 42. I always had an older mother. I enjoyed her. At home, I made sure my mother had everything. I recognize a lot of things were working against me, my family, and my mother to keep her well.
1. The caregivers intimidated me where I was not able to go to see my mother at her bedside, and I lived in the same house as my mother while she received 24/7 caregiving services. Months prior to her death, I was not even able to see what she looked like before she passed, which really upsets me. It leaves me traumatized from the unknown. I reported the caregivers to APS back in December, but that backfired and amped up the caregivers where their behavior continued and encouraged their actions. At some duration, the house was runed by strangers 100% and I was living there. The power of attorney, my half sister, lives elsewhere and encouraged the activity. A very hopeless, ugly situation.
2. Power of Attorney: who is my older half sister, harassed me and trespassed me the entire time, 6 months as a power of attorney for my mother; August to February. As the youngest daughter, she prevented me from balancing out her bad behavior. She volunteered as the power of attorney.
3. My mother's disease "bullous pemphigoid" was incurable. The hospital injured my mother. She had been taken to the ER 9 times in a 6 month span. And, they kept her sick. It was very painful to watch all the trespass. I watched my mother suffer for so long. It hurt me in so many ways. Her second opinions were out of town and they were done way too late. My mother had seen over 40 doctors in 6 months. I did not believe in her medical treatment and she was aware of that.
I feel grief, pain, sorrow, and sadness. I woke up the first two weeks after her death saying to myself, "I can't believe this is happening." As a daughter, it took from me, my mother, and her health. I realize she passed away prematurely.
I have been keeping busy. Applying to jobs, walking around in the downtown area. It happened so fast. I was not expecting my mother to pass away so suddenly. I feel cheated as a daughter. I realize she was cheated as well. I have not been able to focus on myself fully.
I do feel a lot of damage from everything that I have gone through. I can't really describe it all.
