Leaving myself

[Infamousbody]

How can you let someone destroy you? Their hands are clean, yet I'm doing it to myself now.

[Hidden]

Hi and a belated welcome to this community! I hear you loud and clear with this. I for one am very sensitive and therefore vulnerable to getting hurt. I'm working on developing a tough skin.

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to Hidden]

Emotional calluses are good things to grow. But you have to put yourself out there to develop them.

[Infamousbody in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

And how do you do that? I had a narcissistic person interfere every time I tried. Therapy and Dr. , And AA. That's why I am on here. He got everywhere in my life and made me feel trapped

[LilyAnnepuppy in reply to Infamousbody]

I believe I teach people how to treat me. By standing up for myself. Setting and maintaining boundaries. Believing and practicing self worth. I’ve worked hard for this over the years. My default mode is to think I’m “less then.” And I have the desire to justify my existence because I have a fatal flaw that tells me I’m not good enough. Well the hell with that lie.

[Hidden in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

This is so true! If I was to find a silver lining in all this, it would be that I have grown. It has also "forced" me to work on strengthening myself.

[Infamousbody in reply to Hidden]

Thank you! Perhaps all the pain and betrayals was supposed to toughen it up, but really just broke me down. I am sensitive person too, and I thought it was a gift to be empathic. Makes you a target for narcissists and Psychopaths though. Really twisted me around

[Hidden in reply to Infamousbody]

Oh, yikes. How many bleeping narcissists do we HAVE in this world?

I'm dealing with one as well.

[Infamousbody in reply to Hidden]

It's A lot! We sensitive people attract the however. The worst parts of them Everyone else gets the best parts

[Hidden in reply to Infamousbody]

Yes! Yes! And YES!! I TOTALLY get you!!!!

[Infamousbody in reply to Hidden]

That's why nobody gets it. To everyone else.. they're awesome lol They're con artists

I want to start a nonprofit to raise awareness on the subject, but finding a loss as to how to start it. I need help

[Hidden in reply to Infamousbody]

Lol! Yes, they are the saviors of the world. And the best part? They do no wrong. They are superior beings. You know that quote from Shakespeare "all the world's a stage; and all the men and women merely players"? Well...here's a narc's version: "All the world's a stage and I am the one who runs it". It is so INFURIATING!!!!!!!

[Infamousbody in reply to Hidden]

youtu.be/CQwe3Ce40NY(Not working as expected?)

I made a video on it, if you want to see. You basically just said what I say lol.

Captured my face horribly, so just ignore that

[Hidden in reply to Infamousbody]

Listening to it now. Dang, girl!!!! Just one question: how the HEEECK are you doing this without breaking down in tears? Lol

[Infamousbody in reply to Hidden]

Oh I do.. often

[Hidden in reply to Infamousbody]

Almost done. My favorite parts? That they count on destroying you. Makes me all warm and fuzzy inside to know this. "You are a problem to yourself". Oh, totally. I am SUCH a problem to myself. This is why I've been trying to escape myself for years😂

[Infamousbody in reply to Hidden]

It's nice to talk to someone who understands

[Nothing_but_books]

I hear you. It's a start in the right direction to know you're doing it to yourself now. You don't deserve it either way. Maybe if you look for some things to comfort yourself, things that remind you of being well, you can stop.

The link is to help you think of ways to care for yourself.

eugenetherapy.com/article/5...

[Infamousbody in reply to Nothing_but_books]

The gym was it for me, but this guy had me gangstalked through 9 gyms now Got to a point I couldn't take it anymore. I gotta figure it out. It only made me snap

Psychological abuse is real, and it takes time and layering

[Nothing_but_books in reply to Infamousbody]

Stalking is a crime. Keep a record of what's going on and report it.