Struggling again!

[Chinaadventure]

Good morning everybody Happy Valentine's Day to all. For those that have been following me I was doing well last week thought my medication was adjusting. However, this past weekend I started struggling again with the constant feeling of doom, warm feeling across my back and palpitations. I've been up since 4am this morning, praying and asking God to help me and to get me through the day! I feel so bad for my wife that I'm struggling today on Valentine's Day! I am good at hiding it so I guess today will be another day to "put it on". I don't have my therapy appointment until Thursday, I will do what I can with my own self help! I'm just so tired and frustrated, this med change is now going on almost 2 months. I know it takes time, I just thought that I really turned a corner. I know I have to take one day, one moment at a time. I just needed to vent this morning and reach out to those that know what I'm feeling and going through. We have to support each other! If you have never been here before you just don't get it. Please say a prayer for me today, I need all the positive vibes today. Stay strong all and have the best day you can. 💪🙏❤️😔

[SayNOtoPanic]

praying for you! You’re gonna be fine just be patient and hang in there. The adjustment will kick in. Happy Valentines Day to you and your wife. Love, is a beautiful thing! Hugs.

[Kelsey22]

In the exact same place as you right now! Sending you positivity and hope. We will get through this.

[Chinaadventure in reply to Kelsey22]

It's just such a struggle!!! I'm trying. I just meditated. The episode was about trust and what trust do I have in myself and who are the people who I do trust. Hopefully it will get me through the day and I will continue to meditate when I do have the opportunity. As I said in the past I'm very fortunate I work from home so I can't take a break every now and then and I plan to do so today because it's 8:00 a.m. now and I'm exhausted.

[Kelsey22]

I'm proud of you for meditating and making a plan to continue to do so throughout the day!

[Artistfriend]

Stay hopeful brother, i know the feeling up the impending doom up your back, for me it feels like like the whole world is coming at me from behind, is that what its like for you? I know it sucks to feel like youre letting people down that you care about, you have to work on yourself first thats all you can do, there will plenty of more days to connect it isnt just once a year. It might just be anxiety over Valentines day. Talk to your med prescriber or call a pharmacy if it helps

[Chinaadventure in reply to Artistfriend]

Thanks my friend I really do appreciate the kind words. I can't even describe the feeling it's just this warmness that is over my back and I can't shake it... When it comes I know my anxiety is up! Just taking it one day at a time that's all I can do these days. I'm thankful I have a supportive partner!

[Darkhouse]

I admire your "fake it 'till you make it" attitude. That's half of life, I've found. The brain catches up... Eventually... Congrats on meditating today. I always recommend it, but I find it tedious to do in the throws of anxiety. You're smashing coping techniques today!! Happy valentines day to you. Sending you positive energies, do you feel it yet, lol? Hang in there, these medication changes can be a total b. I truly wish there were a smoother way to transition from one need to the next. But you got this, cause you da man!!!

[Chinaadventure in reply to Darkhouse]

I can't wait until my brain catches up! It's been a battle every day since I started to change. I'm trying to do the best that I can and pull out things from my toolbox because I've had enough of the unsettling feeling everyday. Chatting with people in this group really makes me feel better, I know that I'm not alone! We have to stick together and have each other's back! Stay strong and keep moving forward!