Obsessively wondering if i should find a job and whether i can work and whether it would make things better or worse

[Against_the_current]

So rn im free till 14th February when the last semester starts. That's like 17 days. And in the last semester i will have only 2 classes and a month internship, which will both approximately end in the middle of march. Then in the beggining of june final exams for graduation from bachelors. Wondering whether im mentally stable enough to start a job, whether i should just rest these 17 days or doing nothing for so long will make me overthink more. Also im broke and scared to ask dad for money before 1st feb. But if working drops my marks, it would be me who breaks our agreement that he sends me money, i have excellent. Also if i want to move out and i crave buying stuff and i just restrict myself and overthink my budget

[SoporRose]

I think it depends on the job. If you can find one that is very part time and that you enjoy, it might lift your spirits, help you make friends, and bring in some money. It might even introduce you to people who have a room to let.

But if looking for a job or taking one you don't enjoy will add to your stress, don’t do it.

Let’s see: what skills do you have? You’re a good artist. Could you freelance as an illustrator of some kind? Or sell your drawings on the Internet? Or at a farmers’ market? You could make greeting cards or postcards. Here lots of local coffee shops sell local artists’ cards.

What about applying at Starbucks? I don’t know how they operate in Bulgaria, but here they offer benefits and some tuition assistance to all employees.

I worked as a pharmacist assistant for a while. That’s a job that might help you in your career. I learned a fair bit about medications of all sorts in the job (it was a long time ago).

If you like children, you could babysit. If you get along with older people, you could apply at a elder-care center.

You could check on-line for work to do at home, too.

What about seeing if any psychologist’s offices need a part-time receptionist of records keeper?

Local grade schools or high schools might need part-time help.

Do you have any favourite fun stores that know you where you might like to work?

What about a grocery store? They often need people at night, when it's quiet, to re-stock shelves.

I think the important thing is to decide what will bring some joy into your life. Is it relaxing during this time off or making some money and getting out a bit? Tell us your thoughts. That might help you decide.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Freelance would be the best but i don't think someone might buy my stuff. I looked jobs online and was thinking about the position of junior recruitment manager for 4 hours, can work it from home too. But idk, im feeling unwell thinking so much

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

Then give yourself a break! Take the time to rest and relax as best you can. Sleep and read, watch movies and take walks — whatever makes you feel better. (Personally, I’m all about the chocolate 😉.) Then you’ll be ready to start your final term.

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

Thanks, i just don't know

[SoporRose]

What about a middle course? You could look around casually for some enjoyable volunteer work. Don't spend too much time on it. But that kind of low-pressure search might lead you to an unexpected job opening. A volunteer position would look good on your resume and would show your dad that you are working toward building your career. You might meet someone with a room to let. If you’re going to be anxious, then be anxious in a new situation, one you know you can leave because it’s not a job.

I’m suggesting you take an “If it’s meant to happen, it will” approach. Help things along with a low-intensity bit of searching, but don’t feel bad if nothing turns up.

How does that sound as a compromise?

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

It's really smart but i didn't get accepted for the volunteering i did last year and I can't find another

[SoporRose]

Were you looking for opportunities through your school? How about just looking around your neighbourhood? Or you could try online volunteering opportunities, though I think a chance to get out of your apartment is what you want. Do you like animals? Pet shelters often need people to come play with animals waiting to be adopted to leep them happy and socialized. How about writing letters? Try Girls Love Mail or call a nursing home and ask about sending notes to residents. You could use your artistic talents to draw or paint cards to send. If you choose a nursing home near you, you could deliver the notes by hand. You are smart and creative — I’ll bet you can think of some way to make the world a better place and feel better for it!