What do I do?

[ElectricIndigo]

I want to preface this post by saying that I can recognize my priviledge in being able to speak about this when a lot of people cannot. Any support, advice, or overall help will be appreciated.

I don't know what else to do. I have unfortunately isolated myself from everyone and ruined those relationships due to my actions and mental health.

I have no motivation for life. No family, friends, jobs, or hobbies that can pull me out this time. What do you do when you feel out of options?

I have tried therapy, medication, exercise, etc.

I think I want to get better, I do. I want to do it for those that had to be put through my burdens. I want to complete the goals I used to have. I try to take it one day at a time.

It feels as if my mind is keeping me locked in this prison I cannot seem to break. I wish I could rewire my thinking and give my self some form of direction and confidence. I need to change or I'm going to lose to myself.

What do I do?

[Marysblue]

I feel the same way a lot of the time. I just found my new doctor that knew about some meds I haven't tried. There's always some hope that something will help. There's a new targeted magnet therapy called saint that's supposed to be great but it's not in my area yet. Don't give up hope.

[ElectricIndigo in reply to Marysblue]

Thank you very much. I look forward to the progressive research of mental health in the future. It appears they have facilities in Los Angeles, Santa Monica, Las Vegas, and Sedona if anyone is interested.

[Raggedy-Ann]

Start small pick something easy get a basic coloring book and let your mind have a little fun. It is a nice right side of the brain activity, like driving. Smell the crayons, pick out your favorite color draw outside of the lines, practice shading.... You need to let your brain create some of that good chemistry. When you feel it, stay in that moment, savor it.

[Ceemulann]

hey,

I completely understand how you feel. I have kind of went through the same thing. I became very depressed during university when I was 19 and ever since then I haven’t really gone back to being myself. I would basically put on a fake smile but deep down I was not happy. Fast forward to lockdown I became incredibly depressed to the point where my hygiene was terrible, I would stop eating, I would lay in bed and cry. I stopped speaking to my friends, and became very distant. I am now 22 turning 23 and I honestly feel lost in life. I have no motivation to even go to the gym or try and go out with friends, I think I developed social anxiety. This makes me upset because I never use to be like this, I was always happy and outgoing. It got to the point where I’ve stopped celebrating my birthday, this year I thought I would try to but I quickly shutdown the plans because it was too much, I became so overwhelmed with the planning of it.

My advice would be to take it one step at a time. Start by reaching out to one of your friends and explain to them what you have been going through and how you were and are feeling. Your true friends would understand. I would also pick something small to do, maybe knitting reading or even colouring books. Something therapeutic will help calm you and your thoughts, something that doesn’t overwhelm you. I tend to get overwhelmed and then shut down, I think too much into the things I want to do and I break down crying, but it does help to start off small. I haven’t been on any anti depression medication, I don’t think I need to because overtime I have gotten better and I don’t want take that from someone who most definitely needs it. What I hope to find is a therapist who I can speak to. I want to also make more friendships, to improve my social skills.

I tend to find talking to people online more easier than people I know lol, not sure why that’s the case. Anyway I typed so much, sorry 😅