Not selfish

[goldfishcutie]

In my opinion, suicide is not selfish. Surely, things could have been done to avoid one contemplating life in that way. I could have done a lot to avoid things getting to this point.For the past few months, I have been indulging with the hopes that things would end. I am still here, I wonder why. Only to continuing suffering, watch others enjoy life, and to hurt those around me. I have never felt wanted or a part of a group. If we are social creatures, what is it to live in solitude? My existence is unnecessary. I can't take it anymore.

[Starrlight]

I love your goldfishcutie name and pic. I have felt the way you do sometimes. Are you planning on taking your life? I hope not. Please try to believe in any sliver of hope leading to better days.

[DodgeDhanda]

Hi GFC.

U do have a valid point & so long as those around U have been told by yhe person they plan to take their own life & those people choose to ignore it or do nothing to help . There in lays the crux of it all , people say one thing , think another & do something else but all cryptic.

Let's look at those that U left behind like parents & siblings , then let's look at partners & or children too.

What about the perfect wife & the 4 brilliant kids U choose not allow yo come into being !!!

A suggestion if I may ....... Ur closest friend just ask them what they would say or do if U told them that u were thinking of taking ur own life ? Then ask Ur mother & then ur dad but better still ask ur doctor what they would say or think if U told them the complete truth & then remind me how ur existence DOES matter.

I bet U will be a brilliant father

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I do understand. I have had suicide ideation quite a few times in my long senseless life. In 2014 I ended up in the hospital and told group therapy that I would rather die, since I knew my life would continue to be painful. It's been 8 years since then and still in pain mentally, but, of course the antidepressants keep me going for about 5 to 6 hours a day. But once the pills wear off, especially at night, I start to ruminate and think about all the horrible things that happened in my life. You are absolutely right, that suicide is not selfish. Remember, other people don't feel your pain, so they say you are selfish. It's a way that people can say, you shouldn't feel this way, without really understanding the dynamics of your pain and isolation in your life. My question to you is - Are you on antidepressants? If so, they should help you somewhat.

[Oshunlvr]

Not feeling wanted or part of a group are very common symptoms of depression. What are you doing about it?

[Frankie24]

I have suffered from suicidal ideation most of my life. I am Bipolar with panic and anxiety disorder. I also suffer from other physical ailments such as end stage renal failure on hemodialysis three times a week for four hours. Besides my depression and anxiety it is horrible to be hooked up to a machine for those three days every week. I absolutely hate it !! Through everything I have had to endure I finally came to the realization that we have to find things in our lives to enjoy and be thankful for. You need to get busy and not wait for something to happen, it won’t. I know it is hard to get motivated when depressed but volunteering and helping others is a great way to help yourself. Get busy with activities you enjoy. If you don’t have any, start exploring things you liked in the past. I hope you start to feel better and more hopeful soon.