Need Help!

[Asap_Rayghjjj]

I am suffering from depression and anxiety... I got to know about this community while doing some research about how I feel. I have always felt like this since I was a kid, feelings of loneliness, unworthyness, severe anxiety, you can name them. I grew up feeling something was wrong with me, because I was sad at all time.. But I never took it serious, I'm from Nigeria and depression or anxiety is not even something you talk about. It's almost impossible to find someone who would listen or let alone understand you. I have had countless panic attacks this year alone, and lost friends and also had to breakup with my girlfriend who knew I was struggling. I have suffered from panic attacks since I was a kid, I mean for as long as I can remember. I went through all of this without even knowing what I was dealing with. I have lived the past 6 months in total Isolation, I have interest in nothing which was not always like this, the only thing that has kept my going is that I just somehow have the believe that I can make it through and come out strong, but some days you loose hope, I can't get therapy because I can't afford to, I have never seen a doctor, but I can tell you my head aches from feeling so much pain and sadness. In my community you have to be a man, keep your emotions to yourself, and act strong.. I'm tired of acting strong. I want to be strong again, I need to be, I have got only me

[Hidden]

Hi and welcome to this community! I'm sorry you're feeling all this. That is so hard. Is your family supportive?

[Asap_Rayghjjj in reply to Hidden]

Support yes, but not emotionally supportive, most of my childhood trauma are as well due to that. It all about getting them grades and all of that, no one really takes mental health seriously here

[Hidden in reply to Asap_Rayghjjj]

That's so hard. I wonder if writing them a letter about how you feel would help.

[LonelyHouseCat]

I’m sorry to hear that you’re feeling lonely, hopefully we can all find some comfort in each other here. Please know that you are not truly alone, we are all together here in spirit. You are strong for reaching out and confessing your feelings here, but it’s okay to not feel strong sometimes too.

[Dolphin14]

Welcome, I'm glad you found us. Here you will find people going through similar things and you can freely express yourself.

Have you looked for any online educational videos regarding any of your issues? The best would be searching some respected psychologists or psychiatrists in the field. Psychology Today articles could help you learn some coping skills to make your life a bit easier?

Therapy can be very expensive and freedom to speak about our problems, with understanding, is not always possible.

You found us Don't stop your search avaiya.com/

This site was recommended to me by another member. They have free talks on many different subjects

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[designguy]

Sorry to hear about your suffering and situation, a lot of us here have come from very poor parenting backgrounds as well. It sounds like you have been through a lot and realize how powerful you really are and have the wisdom and desire to do something about it.

I suggest you get the DARE Anxiety book if you can and read it about how to constructively deal with panic attacks and anxiety. You can get the book on amazon and if you can't get the book they have a lot of good videos on youtube. Youtube is also a great source of all kinds of good free information including on dealing with panic and anxiety. You can also check out the youtube videos of Dr. Claire Weekes which are very good.