Feeling Lost and Questioning Myself

[Backdrop]

So, my boyfriend had a cousin who committed suicide and I knew him from his childhood from when I volunteered at the boy's ranch, he was at. Well, my boyfriend asked me if I knew why his cousin done what he did, well I told him what I knew about his cousin as a kid, and he said that he feels like I am hiding information about his cousin from him. I know that his cousin was bi because he dated my male cousin, but they went their separate ways. I later found out that my cousin had contacted him a month before he committed suicide. My boyfriend pretty much told me he needed his space and sometime which I respect that, but I feel like he is trying to blame me for what his cousin done which is putting my anxiety and depression in overdrive.

[Shnookie]

U R not to blame for his cousin’s death.

Tragically there is a higher amount of

Suicide among the LGBTQ+ Population as you well know due to societal discrimination and at times severe mental health issues. U told him what U knew. We don’t know if his cousin had

Suicidal ideations it’s understandable that your anxiety and depression R in overdrive but please take care of yourself I’m here

4 U hugs 🤗 S

[Shnookie]

U R 100 💯 % correct

[designguy]

Suicide is an awful tragedy for everyone involved and the unfortunate reality is that none of us have any control over the actions of someone else nor are we responsible for their actions. I had a beloved brother commit suicide years ago, the hardest most painful thing i've ever experienced. He had promised us he wouldn't do it and was even getting help and going to therapy but we found out that my wife was dropping him off but he wasn't going in. At the time we couldn't even have him placed in temporary holding for his own protection, and it was very frustrating. It is very emotionally hard and sad but it was not mine or anyone else's fault, he was in a lot of emotional pain and chose that way to deal with it. Love and miss him.